Sunday, December 14, 2008
its nearing 10pm. i am feeling really really tired.my eyes are giving way. there's this stinging sensation.anyway. wouldn't be able to attend the 7 path session again.due to events in camp. recruits are in. we have to take them. that means the end of friday book out. say hi to sat book out.thats really sad actually.had a conversation with a friend.adult as usual. its alot more productive speaking to adults.they have what we lack. experience and wisdom in many aspects of life.anyway yeah. had a chat with an adult friend haha.i love that kinda chatting sessions. learn lotsa stuff. had a slient conversation with another friend also.dunno what on earth is going on. decided not to test water anyway.its weird to be at the same table but not chat .anyway, yeah, there has to be a reason.okay, some body asked me out.and i turned that person down. gave an excuse of cause.i dun reject people flatly. kinda mean.after a while, on the way home. the old thoughts came back to me.why the hell am i giving up this opportunity for that some one else?seriously i have no idea. its arghhh.and that person, doesn't fit into any of the criteria.alright, fits into certain criterias only.it was a good opportunity but i wasted it. gave it up.and its not like i plan to make any moves. yes i like her.that doesn't mean though, that i would/intend to woo her.i can just leave my feelings as they are.i got to give this some thought. as you guys can see. this paragraph, is a mess. no proper starting or conclusion.thats because i, am in a mental mess now, with regards to this situation.that girl. not the opportunity. why cant i get over it when i said i am.
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 21:43
