Sunday, December 24, 2006
back to blog ..concert is over, an entire day at VCH ..never felt that tired before, to add to it,i didnt sleep the entire night before concert ..didnt feel the effect till swo's rehearsal after the afternoon concert ..literally had my clarinet swinging left and right hahah ..i hold it upright in my right hand with the bell resting on my right leg ..so whenever i fell asleep, it just swayed wildly, pretty dangerous ..swayed all the way in front of amer's face and he got a shot ..luckily he sort of called out to me when it went in front of him,if not i believed my clarinet would be on the floor ..was damn tired, having many bar rest didnt help either,fell asleep counting them hahaha ..concerts were fine, quite nice ..swo concert was great according to my friends who attended ..they were impressed with the soloist for the concertos ..hmmmm, let me see what else ..oh yeah, had the chance to know a few of our band members better ..lingzi, chun bok, sok hian, yingxian and lynette ..if i spelled any of ya names wrongly, please pardon me ..had lunch with them, dinner as well ..chatted over dinner, thats how i got to know them a little better ..i still dont understand something, neither do i see why should it turn out like this ..if things have been assigned and planned,why than have others got to do the job, and why the inefficiency ? i really have no idea ..and i cant understand why do they not have the initiative ..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~well, was just thinking about something ..i guess for many of us, this is something that we do unknowingly ..how many of you guys wear a different mask for something different ?like maybe at your work place you portray yourself differently fromwhen you are at home, to the people at these places ..some times we even break it down to the different indivuals we are with right ?how come its like this ? for what reasons ?is it just a human character thing in almost all of us or is it our indivual character or the need for it ?i know one reason can be fear hahah ..i behave like a monkey when i was in sec school,but i was a guai boy at home, that's why my dad said i dont shit where i eat haha ..i guess many of us reading this would not give it much thought,but it really made me think, why the change for different enviroments ..comes very naturally at time too ..just some random thoughts ..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~wow, i guess i am becoming more daring with whom i speak with ..usually chat any'o'how with my friends and classmates only ..not a bad thing though, but i just have to keep in check that i do not cross the limit ..hmmm, think i wanna do some self reflection later,about my life, what i really want and stuff ..i have decided that girls would forever be secondary,that she would one day come naturally somehow or another ..sometimes in life, we encounter situations where the more we push for it,the further we get from it ..so i decided to let nature take its course ..that doesn't mean that i would treat my future gf well or shower her with attention ..its not me to not pamper my girl friend, for some strange reason ..right now, i wanna set certain things straight though it may be too late ..guess i really have changed alot, my character i mean ..i would give a damn about anything in the past ..wonder what exactly am i like now ..some who know me say i am a nice guy,some who know me say i am like a play boy,some who know me say i have a glib tongue ..all the funny stuff la, i also dunno ..when i am real nice to a person, it usually means i have a motive for doing so ..it doesn't neccessarily mean i want something from that person ..when i am pissed off with a person, that person would know it ..i dont usually condemn people at first sight,it depends what comes out from their mouth for what comes out of your mouth comes from your heart ..and it speaks alot about that indivual, his character and all ..its not very diffcult to read a person ..the eyes are the doors to the soul ..its all in the body and verbal language,what the person says to those around him, and how that person behaves around others ..however, its possible that we may misjudge a person ..piercing my tongue, those who dont know me would say i am ah beng ..those who do, would say he is hao wan er yi, or still imatured ..this is just an example of how we may judge a book by its cover wrongly ..guess that was quite a bit of talk ..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~borrowed from tian ze his final fantasy, the spirit within ..shall watch it later ..thomas gave me a ride home again ..we were at mac with the other band members ..went there after having a pot luck party at andrew's house ..anyway, thomas drove me back and it started to rain ..guess what, my gate was locked, had to climb over the metal gate ..and my dog thought i was an intruder, kept barking ..that was still fine ..was having my bath halfway when the house suddenly had a black out ..great, it was damn dark in the toilet, not to mention the heater went out as well ..which meant i wouldn't have hot water for long ..just had to wait till the power came back on, which was like a few mins later, luckily ..the last time the power went off, it lasted for 30 to 60 mins ..guess i shall stop here ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:38
