Tuesday, November 20, 2007
alright, so i am down. with what i dunno.woke up feeling really weird today. saw it coming but yeah.didn't expect it to hit this stage so quickly. usually it takes 3 days after the first symtoms to reach this stage.anyway, woke up felt really weird thought to myself, so fast ?went for a shower, body ached, darn. read my book downstairs, got myself warm/hot plain water the whole day.save the hot cup of green tea just now after dinner. followed in marcus car to collect melvyn's. drove to chong pang.nasi lemak store was closed. went to fishball. had fish soup. then home. and it was raining and the dogs were getting a litte drench cause of the wind.was like what the hell. sick already. went hands on, did some kinda shade for them.took a hot bath, body ache, headache. bang bang bang. read my book.watched half of, rise of the silver. dinner. now listening to James Barnes 3rd sym.its sounds big and scary yet grand as well.think i shall visit the doc on thursday. see hows the timing gonna be like.meeting some pals at the esplanade around 1900hrs.i would surely be early cause of the 2hr rule that usually appears.last note of 3rd sym first mvt is really nice haha. maybe hang out around the library.suddenly i find the bass clarinet sound very nice.if only the Bb can sound like that hahaha. not low enough anyway.maybe i would be itchy finger enough one day to try the bass clarinet.fatal seductions. that book haha. bought part 2 quite a while back.now i have part 1. been reading it. finishing it soon. tonight's a possibility. hmmm. it kinda spook me actually. ahaha.kinda made me think, is there a possibility? thought and thought and thought, nah cant be hahahaha.but i think thats it, gotta stop somewhere right? why not here hahah.think its a good book to scare myself hahah.in the book, the main character has AIDS, and he doesn't know it.and he is still continuing with his loose behaviour. meets a girl falls in love.by then too late, he already has it. clock's ticking. mahler's knocking.can almost predict the story actually, same as book 2.but yeah, still gonna finish it. but yeah, dun want that to happen to me.so yeah, gotta be a good boy. no hanky panky while in army hehe.its been a while since i have been to church. weeks already.i wanna just attend a mass or something. maybe just sit on one of the benches.when there's no mass or anything, hall's still open.i like the peace there. just sit there, ponder over things. read my book there? i dunno. i just like the church since dunno how long ago.just like that peaceful feeling there. just like to wonder about who came up with this and that.why the design for this and that. whats it like in the past when they conducted mass.alot of things. main thing is the peace haha. something i never really enjoyed at home. actually i dun mind making it my home.not as a priest or something la but yeah.okie, 3rd sym is ending, i shall end here too.
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 18:44
