Friday, February 20, 2009
gonna set up something to record my funds.income and expenditure. spend on what and how much.haven't really thought of how it should be done.gonna get a rough one done out first, refine it over time.the projected savings of at least 50 bucks for this month.tehhhhhhhh no more no more haha. literally spent my money on food.been eating alot during breaks in camp. like 8 dollars a day.got myself a new toy just yesterday, 45 bucks. just found out i can only use it in like 3 to 5 months time.which isn't a bad thing. cause that would delay the next 45 bucks.the only downside is the timing. purchased it at the wrong time.gotta check my account balance tomorrow.after paying everything, i reckon i've got like 30 bucks left till 10 march?just needa jian fei a bit. eat less while in camp hahahah.i think i have just bumped into a self identification crisis.hmmm, yeah. maybe thats not the proper term to use.it isn't really a crisis just dunch know whats the word between a small prob and a big prob.anyway, i guess i have got too much time on my hands.started thinking, reflecting actually. on my actions and all.and i realise that i have no reason to support quite some of those actions.i have no idea where am i headed to as well.a few days back, i was wondering to myself, shit, i am 21 this year.yet i am not like a 21 year old. i really don't know how to explain this part.in terms of behavior, character blah blah, i feel like i am a 18 year old kiddo.i feel i have really under achieved dor some reasons. things like studies, how i handle things under my responsibility,things that by now, i should at least be on par with my peers.the next other big problem i realised is. i cant feel for any girl already.maybe the so call "right one", which i dont believe in, hasn't popped by.this one's kinda inconvenient to elaborate here.the other one is, i cant seem to stay still in what ever i do.i am always on the move. its like a case of lack of commitment in some areas.in others, its just the want, like an instinct, to keep moving on.as though i am a nomad by nature.lotsa things to sort out. lots and lots of things.of cause though, i wont let these affect my mood.it affects those around me. like those paladin's aura skills in diablo.i hit a new speed record. hahaha.k, not a fine or what, as in, the fastest speed i drove at.140kmph. along mandai road. another record set would be, the lowest km per litre of petrol hahha.its now like 6.9km per litre. marcus' car is a duo turbo 3.5 litre engine. he does about 7.5km per litre.mine is just a 2.5 litre engine. i do 6.9km per litre. how bout that. hahah.phewwwww. really gotta learn to keep my posb card at home.
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