Saturday, August 18, 2007
well. its pretty late already. like 142.somehow i am tired but i don't wanna get to sleep. its gonna be work again tomorrow. afternoon to night.gosh. sometimes it feels good thinking of her, other times, its horrible.i need to be with my pals. find some of them. meet up or something.met one of them earlier on. had a fun enough time.it was good. felt good. after driving after work. just went to chill out.been killing myself with work. worked myself so i wouldn't have the chance to think.its proven effective. and i am earning. which is good too.gonna try and get the job at giordano. they are hiring, paying 6 an hour. needa work on both weekends though.see if i can snake my way around. maybe hold two jobs for a while.then, i would be working like 7 days a week. making full use of my time.that would be great actually. if i do get the job, i'll leave gelare after 3 weeks ? but if i cant like get long working hours at giordano. hell, i'll just juggle between the two. something in me is telling me, mitchell, you need a break.another part of me is saying, mitchell push your limits.for most part of it, i am thinking of pushing myself further.find my breaking point. not only that. by pushing myself further.i not only earn more money, i get to be distracted from thinking of her.and i like to work hahaha. though doing the same thing bores me to death.friend says i am crazy to hold two jobs and stuff. yeah, working 7 days a week would also no mean no time for other things.like no time to catch up with friends. no time for band. no time for wooing girls ( which is the best part of the deal ).no time for anything seriously. its just wake up, head to work, work, return home, sleep. and the whole thing repeats itself all over again.maybe once in a while, on some days. it would be like.wake up, work, driving/recreational activities, head home, sleep.and the usual routine the next day. oh well. if you ask me, i have not really found what i wanna do now ? as in, something worth doing ? therefore i am working myself mad.just keeping myself occupied. not wasting my time. and gosh i forgot to water my plant earlier on, its not too late still.i loved her, and i still do
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:42
