Friday, August 18, 2006
oh yeah i am officially fucking grounded haha ..so damn grounded , the worst grounding session ever i guess .. kk , anyway i'll find a way to escape ..and oh no , my $13 biohazard ear plug got confiscated ..i guess its in the bin now , so sad la , its the only "pure" pair left ..lucky he doesn't know i have 2 more studs in my car boot ..my Z4 car model's boot that is, the one parked on my shelf ..so sorry darling , now that i am grounded , we cant really meet that as often as we would like too now ..anyway , nearly got chased out of the house ..why ? because i tried to defend / reason out that denise is not the cause of me piercing my ear or dying my hair ..u guys saw her before , and your say before i even bring her home i am already causing ur to dislike her , well fuck u chee byes , your can say what your want , at the end of the day the person with the final say to remain with her a not lies with me ..i rather leave house then break up with her ,she has a family , a real family , a family that loves each other ,protects each other , grooms each other , a warm , loving , peaceful family ..yeah they may not be rich at all , they live in a small - medium size HDB flat unlike us ..but at least they are so much more of a family then this house hold is ..i can chit chat with her family over dinner , laugh and stuff with them ..if any of our family members were to do that ..90% of the time it wouldn't end up in arguements ..i love her family , i really love it , guess this family just doesn't have what it takes ..it just doesn't have that X-factor bonding ..or maybe its because i spent the first 11 years of my life in a different family , one quite similar to denise's and thats y i prefer that kinda family and therefore expect that kind of family life ..and also maybe because of that period i was away , my upbringing is some what different , thats why we cant see eye to eye on certain issues ..a family with a loving mother and a family without onetruely return different results , no matter how similar the rest of the family structure is , the mother plays the most important role ..u know what , i guess i don really care much about this place ? chased out than chased out bah , always get threatened with the same stuff , repeatedly ..even if i have to sleep under void decks , i wont say sorry ..anyway u have so 5 children , 1 gone le , another 1 go also no big deal , family name still goes on and the rest of the 3 would still be around ..dunno what to do with all the time that i'll be spending at home ..it could be put to good use though ..practice my clarinet , exercise a little more , read more books haha , see what else can i think of ..gaming ? nah thats not something productive , but hack , its kills time ..studying , k thats way out of the question ..it puts me to sleep faster than my sleeping pills do haha ..the worst enemy that i have to face off with is myself ..i cant stand confinement in one area , bigger space is better ..but being grounded , man its gonna kill me ..i like freedom , i should be in the United States of something ..or maybe i should just cause im to blow his topso that he'll chase me out of the house ..than i can learn to be more independent , ok , housing will be provided by a few people , thats already settled ..money , there's so many ways to earn it ..there are frail old people , school children , weaker peers all around us if we realise ..be it psycholigically or physically weak haha , the stronger ones always survive ..k i can get a few lobangs i for jobs also la just a bit out of the way and i require some capital for transport ..haiz , so sian leh , i am really gonna miss u denise ..its like only sat or sun than we'll be able to meet ..all because of that playful decision hahah , k thats my fault i admit ..i'll try to come out on sat , then we shall go racky around for ur stuff ..hope we'll be able to get what you want ..that bitch of a woman which brought me wailing into this world must have nagged repeatedly after the call ..if not he wouldn't be so mad ..what the fuck ..guess i am damn pissed off already , or is it more of dissappointment ?i need some band practice , some seductively tough music ..so that i can engross myself in it , be oblivious to the world around me ..than at least i can enjoy a moment of happiness , esctacy if u would say ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:23
