Sunday, December 03, 2006
i think i am falling in love again ..
seriously, i am for real, i never kid about my feelings for another ..
ever since i decided that i wanna be serious ..
i still joke around yes i admit, but about real ones ..
only i myself know about it, and i never joke about
it regarding that person ..
gosh,dunno whats wrong with me already ..
she seems prettier prettier as time goes by ..
thats just the physical factor, heart is gonna rule my decisions
instead of my mind in time to come ..
arghh, cant believe it, cant imagine what would happen ..
too much to risk, would create too many problems ..
too much at too delicate an enviroment ..
emotions emotions emotions ..
damn why must i have a heart within a heart ..
why cant mine just exist for the physical function of keeping me alive ..
haiz, sometimes it hurts to be in love ..
just as much as i dont wanna be in one any more,
i cant help but fall for you, arghhhh ..
hope i can contain my feelings, and force it away ..
darn it, darn me, darn the human soul ..
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alright, i might be changing my blog music later after i blog ..
currently it's mahler 3 mvt 3 ..
my dear principal player says she visits my blog specially for the song haha ..
i got good taste hor ??? :X hahahah ..
kk, next on the options list, very nice too, also by mahler ..
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Royal Concertgebouw Orchestra
Riccardo Chailly
mahler symphony 3,
Mvt 2 -- Tempo di menuetto. Sehr massig
Mvt 5 -- Lustig im tempo und keck im Ausdruck
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London Philharmonic Orchestra
Klaus Tennstedt
mahler symphony 5,
Mvt 3 -- Scherzo
Mvt 5 -- Rondo
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maybe upload Dimitri Shostrakovich symphony 5, Mvt 2 ..
so that if our dear string bass friend visits the blog ..
she'll be reminded of Mahler 1 ..
"its no big deal" muahahahhahahah ..
but it takes a hell lot of courage to play such a difficult line
for that mahler symphony, pei fu ni ..
i dun think i could have done any thing close to what she did
if i played the string bass ..
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its been quite a while since i started typing the first word of this entry ..
about 30 to 40 mins already ..
trying to figure out which music should i upload ..
maybe shall just use the bach suite for a temporary one first ..
than i would upload the chosen one say tomorrow ?
yup, guess i would do that ..
its the song they used in the movie "casanova"
for the dance in Venice i think, one the many parties in that show ..
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the life of a centipede does not drain out completely
even after it has suffer a fatal blow ..
some things must be done when it is required ..
there is no good or bad, right or wrong in handling such matters ..
right or wrong doesn't have a clear definetation,
its just a point of view ..
yet many things define it on a personal scale,
such as our principals and moral dignity ..
strike the iron while its hot,
delay could bring further damage ..
dont just trim the weeds on the surface,
uproot it if you wanna get rid of it once and fall all ..
things like weeds enstrangle the growth of others ..
sucking whats good out of those around them,
denying the good that could be given to them ..
the thorn among the rose,
the wolf in sheep's clothing,
such a pain in the arse, so deceitful ..
there is no victory in place for deceitfulness,
the truth preveils ultimately ..
no one denies the righteous a place in their homes,
but turns the wicked away ..
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hmmm, band was great today !!!
Chun Bok and a few others came today ..
all from Dunman High, fantastic man ..
play with him damn nice la ..
and he is damn good as well ..
hmm, hope i can learn some stuff from him ..
guess he would also spur the rest of the section mates to work ..
sometimes, when people see another that is better than them,
there is this feeling of wanting to be as good if not better ..
it may not be a bad thing ..
it may be pressure to catch up ..
it may be due to a competitive character,
which helps keep each other improving ..
unless, it leads to the point of being aggressive ..
it may also be due to wanting to not let that person have
the impression that you are not that good ..
either way works as long as it enrichs the indivual
and the others around that person ..
cool to have such a player in the section actually ..
i mean, its amazing hahaha, the speed at which he
sorts out the running notes and fingerings hahah ..
wow is the only word i can think of ..
he is very friendly, all the more better for the section ..
easier for us to help him bond in with the section ..
sometimes with the introduction of people of his character color,
it helps others open up easier too, which is good ..
expecting great playing/practicing days together, ahead :)
welcome to the gang by the way,
you are one of us now, sounds like a secret society
recruitment thingy :X hahahaahah
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fingers itchy already, gonna find out more on
how does leather / cork padding and how does removing
the metal ring on the bell affect the overall performance
of the instrument ..
after i have done my research and if i have decided ..
of cause the money factor as well ..
than most likely gonna sent it somewhere for "zenging" hahah ..
currently carrying out an experiment ..
finding out how does taking in more mouthpiece or
lesser mouthpiece affects my playing ..
i realised there are some changes when i did a quick experiment ..
but cant really confirm what is it ..
something to do with the sound, obvously la ..
dunno how to describe it though ..
short term effects, cause its just today that i tried are,
its easier to get the higher notes ..
easier to lose control and squeak as well ..
feels like the air flow is faster, or more air is going in at one go ..
the tone changes, sounds a little brighter to me ..
must go and confirm all this again,
bring my instrument to the CC tomorrow ..
than can try if i have the chance hahah ..
shall end here le ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 23:39
