Monday, January 22, 2007
hmmm, was in lecture today ..was paying attention to the entire 2hrs lecture, 1st time ..lecturer even commented that it was an honour to haveme in his lecture class today, shows how rare i attended his lectures ..anyway, yesh, was trying my best to concentrate on the lesson ..however, those thoughts had to slip into my mind ..i have to admit thats i didn't pay attention allthe time, there were a few moments where my thoughtsjust wondered off else where ..and a few of those was about her, or that someone ..found myself wondering and missing that someone ..seriously i have no idea how and what to do about this particular distraction ..and its causing me dearly ..anyway, got chan fai and jia xian to clear my doubts on certain parts of this topic ..finally found out how to use short cut on the calculator ..spoke to Mr loy after lecture, asked him some questions about a certain topic ..hahah, he gave tips during lecture about what would be in the main exam paper, there is a sub paper ..too bad all my pig friends and dog friends were napping behind me ..lecturer decided to use sentences with double meanings to bring his message across to the class about the exam ..and when he reached this particular part, he said this few topics are not relevant ..and than some idiot just asked, er cher, exam will come out like that ? show to study ah ?lecturer looked at me and the both of us just laughed haaha ..some of them just dont use their brains ..anyway, his reply was, well, i said it was irrelevant, its for u to decide whether a not its gonna appear in the exams ..other instances included this particular tough questionon the lecture notes ..he said: this question will magically appear in the exams ..and still got some guy who went,means have huh ? okie, mr loy told me not to give up ..take my time to understand the topics, but not too long of cause, not to delay or it would be too late ..hmmm, yeah ..doing what i can ..i dont study 24/7 of cause though i should be doing so ..i mean because of my situation, i should be studying whenever i have the chance right ..but yeah, sometimes, i just sit back for an hour or so,thinking about certain things, letting all those thoughts run through my mind ..than when those mathematical fomulaes come to my mind,i just sort of snap back to reality and jump on my books ..would be studying after dinner ..should be able to master another topic by tonight,wont sleep till i do it ..chan fai told me this, which i found interesting ..he said:" u ah, u got the brains but you just never use it properly " i guess it may be true to some extend,when i am "on" i can twist any formulaes that i just pickup on the spot ..anyway all these are not the main point ..just gotta get what i have at hand done right ..than maybe that would open uop the doorway for me to bargain with my dad about the aussie trip ..the section doesn't seem to be in good shape ..i mean, the DH students cant 100% confirm,and if in the worst case event, if they cant make it,than it would be down to 4 Bb clarinets ..would be sort of letting down all who have placed their hopeand maybe trust in me that i would be joining them ..is 5 months too short to train a player tobe comfortable with the competition pieces ?taking into account that their basics are there ..but still not enough for some songs, 4 players ..nevermind, with me it would be 5 ..pulling people to study with me, would be studying with thehigh scorers soon ..hope i can make use of their brain juice ..meanwhile i also hope that i can forget you,this is a nice girl, somehow i found a way to overlook the bad points about her,to be able to brush it aside most of the time ..to be blind to her bad points and see only the goodness in her ..yet it would cost me too much to think of her nowadays ..guess i wouldn't wanna be with her or anyone else for quite a while too ..just wanna settle this part of my life ..shall think further about relationships next time ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 20:02
