Sunday, October 22, 2006
back from the church event ..tell u guys it was great man ..when i first when reached the place on sat morning with chin seng,i was like sian sian, a bit restless and got quitesome thoughts running in my head ..thoughts like what are we gonna do, will it be like church camp last time, will it solve my problems, will it provide answers ..questions like these la, plus some other personalissues that weight me down quite a bit ..ok, so we reached there early cause chin seng drove ..hmmm, worshipped and stuff ..than as time passed by felt better and better ..than they had pray over and stuff .. made a few friends there, all guys, plus like i am the 3rd youngest there ..so ok, nice to chat with them, can learn some stuff from the adults ..than before i knew it, sat night was over ..though i was tired, i went back to the roomfeeling lighter and without so much troubles on my mind ..than the next day came in a flash ..than we had the same stuff, pray over and different lessons ..chin seng made a good move on sat night to ask the lord to help me open up ..cause on sunday morning i cried like a baby ..its amazing seriously, grown man just collasping and crying like babies ..crying their hearts out, even as i am recalling this event, i am like woah haha ..events that happened in my life since i was like K1 or K2,just came rushing back to me ..all these things i kept so deep in me, that i forgot about that over time ..and even if i did, no one knew about them these at all ..not even my closest girl friend or my brother ..than just broke down haha ..at first it was like 1 or 2 drops flowing down my cheeks ..than before i knew it, i was crying alot ..after that i felt so good seriously ..so super happy, relieved, relaxed, super light ..as though i just came from heaven haha ..went to the toilet haha, my eyes were so red i freaked out when i looked into the mirror ..was like woah haha, when was the last time i cried so much ..than the pray over and stuff, people droppingcrying, speaking in tongues, simply awesome ..the feeling when u get touched and just let it take over u, than the sensation after that ..ooolalaaaa, hahah ..so powerful la, so so amazing ..after that right, those memories that i kept bottled up for so long,yes i can still remember them, but they lost the negative effects they had on me ..i no longer resent those people involved ..i no longer grow angry at the thought of it haha ..damn cool, plus they are tucked away and are not so clear anymore ..it is a priceless thing to experience him, yet it is free as long as u yearn for him ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 20:27
