Monday, January 29, 2007
finally able to blog properly, as in say what i wanna say ..sis gave me 7 mins on her com earlier on ..had to do everything i wanted to do in that 7 mins,update my blog entries, check my email blah blah ..therefore, my post earlier on was super short ..was thinking i wouldn't be able to use a com tonight ..but wa la, i am on martin's lappy now hahaha, can lie down on my bed and blog, even better ..hmmm, feel like chionging again ..that night was damn fun ..lets not talk about MOS,the atmosphere at Geoghapy itself was already good enough ..yes that's how its spelled if i am not wrong,not geography ..feel like drinking again, you dont have to smoke there,once you are in, you are a super passive smoker so its ok la, see how you wanna view it ..anyway, yeah, just feel like going back there ..not because of the thai girl, more of just to relax, chill out and forget all thats in my mind now ..i think its time to change some stuff now ..its impossible to please everyone, true it may be my fault at times ..i am not afraid to admit my mistake,just that i wouldn't do so if the other party decidesto play punk and put me down ..if thats the case, i wont die alone,someone else has gotta go down with me one way or another ..and seriously, i dunno what the hell is wrong ..why does it always become like this ..it doesn't matter there's communication between us it seems ..cause either way, you just seem to have a problem with me ..try to be nice to ya, and you wanna fuck aroundand piss me off, thats fine, i can still tolerate ..do that frequently, if i ain't angry after a while, it either means i am in asylum or i am just insane ..hmmm, it seems to be a game that i cant win ..cant find the flaw to crack it ..hmmm, i cant remember what was it like for the first few times when we met ..that was how long ago, seriously i cant remember as well ?maybe 2 years ? yeah guess it was around 2 years ago ..plus minus a few months i guess haha ..and yes, it seems to be hard to work with someone i know ..dunno why, hmmm, got mouth as good as no mouth ..fucking standing in front of you and it seems to youthat i grew up eating glass ..seriously i dunno how you do it, you seem to have an extremely acute sense in detectingthe flaws of others and then,your mindset is set on those flaws only ..if only i can be like you, would have forgotten many people already ..too bad i am too happy a person, too jolly, too fun loving ..feel like dancing now as it is hahaha ..reminds me of a friend i knew, just like to complain and be negative about whatever that friend does, or those around that friend does ..man, i am being so all over in this entry,just shooting and shooting ..i am so tired seriously, not physically ..i am like losing a game here, but i dont want to ..like dad's in the back ground saying mitchell shut the com down,but here i am saying, dad i am gonna win already, a while more pls ..yes, victory always seems to be so close, yet its so far ..hmmm, shall think about it, anyway thats the reason why i cant sleep now ..i am thinking what went wrong between us,how the hell we can have a war colder than the cold war ..still remember that night at the chalet,playing cards in the room, what game was it ..was playing it for the first time ..is it bridge ? i cant remember the name ..4 players, 2 would work hand in hand to win the gamewithout looking at each other's cards ..yeah, that night was fun ..remember the comments of a friend, norain was it ? hahah, damn random and funny comment ..damn, i seriously feel like drinking now ..this house has no liquor, shits ..ya, so if things seemed smooth sailing back then ..than why are things like this now ? or is it purely because we do not understand each other ..maybe some where along the equation,there was a misunderstanding or a problem which was left unresolved ?i seriously dunno what was it, neither can i decipher what do your actions mean ..cause, you are one unique person from the others i have met ..never met someone who can be so cheery around others,but show me one super long black horse face ..worst than batman's gd friend, 2 face ..its as though you have split personality or something ..and i am just super suay to have the dark side ..shall continue studying what means what,i only understand so much on my own ..my amount of understanding of you, is only equals to the amount of yourself that youchoose to reveal to me ..if not, there seriously isn't anything much to do ..by the way, dunch know if you are reading this ..anyway, think i wanna clarify something that i previously felt was unneccessary till my friend told me otherwise ..pretty long time back, anyway we happened to be on the same bus ..i just chose to walk pass you and S.H after alighting ..reason was simple, 2 reasons only ..1) didn't wanna interrupt you guys, nothing to say also ..2) just wanted to get the room open before your reached so that your wouldn't have to wait ..think what you wanna think, but seriously,there's no fault for me to find with you ..there's a limit to my tolerance and it'snot something to be taken as my weak point ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:00
