Tuesday, January 30, 2007
man, i cant find it ..
searched through old records, like for 30 over mins ..
yet i still cant dig out a single clue ..
its points to God knows which direction ..
seriously i feel like taking a puff ..
not that its nice or anything, but that moment of estacy
just takes away the pain ..
feel like just going downstairs and steal a cigarette from dad ..
man, feeling like shit, i cant sleep ..
i seem to be lost again, just purely lost, like floating in space ..
lost that aim in life, i need a sort of wake up call again ..
if i have a car, i would be at some open air area now ..
maybe the beach, yes i like the beach ..
so peaceful and quiet, just the stars in the sky,
the sound of the waves against the sand,
the sound of tree leaves brushing against each other,
the medley of animal voices all around ..
its just like having mother nature comfort me with her gentle voice ..
that voice being all that i would hear around me ..
but right now i feel horrible ..
i shall come up with a mental draft regarding these
few matters in the hope that it would help ..
when carried out i mean ..
seriously, i feel like skipping it for maybe a week or two ?
than i wouldn't have to see you again and again ..
than i wouldn't ponder what is wrong ..
neither would i have to meet the opposite of a clown ..
arggghhhh, so many problems these few times ..
~~~~~~~~~~~ tell me what am i to you ~~~~~~~~~~~~
shit, i seem very dark these 2 or 3 days, not good ..
if i am still not dead by 3, would pop a sleeping pill ..
at least it would make me dead for a few hours,
even vampires need rest, talk about the living ..
i guess what i really want now,
would be to cuddle up in the hugs of someone
yeah, i really need that
just wanna you beside me
to have your face beside mine,
your breathing on my skin ..
wanna run my fingers through your hair ..
wanna feel the thumping of your heart ..
just wanna have you with me now ..
missing you and i dont wanna let you go
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her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:51
