Sunday, April 08, 2007
just had a very weird thought come to my mind ..i have almost no enemies nowadays and i cant think of anyone that would regard me as one ..ok not liked by all who know me, but yeah not to the extend of enemies haha ..this is just weird la, so no link, kk ..HAHAHAHAAH i am so damn glad la hahaha ..i can make it for the aussie trip haha and the reason is like so ironic haha ..yeah, cause i got no studies now so if i want than go loh ..the letter came at a right time i guess ..so all my work pay would be for a different purpose now ..gonna save up what ever i can, see what i wanna get in aussie ..and for my very own bottle of liquer perhaps hahaha ..hahaha, i cant believe it really ahhahah ..you know what, as was said before i shall say it again haha ..joining a band like swo, the good thing would be the adults ahha ..cause they have like, been there done that, get my meaning ?yeah, so they can give you advises and stuff ..its like a GPS system for driving ..it notifies you before you approach something, like 60km/hr speed cam ahead, slow down ..so yeah, in the same way, they give me advises and stuff that would guide me ..i wont know whats the path ahead gonna be like, so they give me a sort of sneek preview kinda thing ya know ..well, its always good to have this kinda friends ..hahaha, played cotsworld symphony today ..when jocelyn told wai geng, i was like, aiya dun think will play in the end ..cause carnival overture had the same thing, ended up playing ahha ..its easier than ida !! ahahha, quite fun and nice too ahaha ..the clarinets part very fun and interesting la haahha ..but i think the crochet equals to 208 is gonna be mad ahahah ..man there isn't work tomorrow, so boring ..hmmm, i dunno why but it doesn't seem to work ..tried to hate you and stuff, you know, dislike you, work on your bad points ..yet it just doesn't seem to work for long, the feelings just return ..why why why, why are feelings so tricky ..dun wanna fall in love again actually, guess its because i am afraid of the fall ..yeah, such a coward, though i yearn to experience it again i am afraid of it too ..ahh, why why why, why must i like you ..you of all girls you know, i really cant believe it ..feelings, how i wish i could suppress mine fully and will it away ..however i am only a human and am fully exposed to all emotional attacks ..ahh, so sad la, wish i never had an emotional heart ..hmmm, saw a few scanner printers by HP / canon at those electronic stores ..going quite cheap like 300 odd per unit ..looking into the idea of getting one, dun have a scanner at home, only a printer ..can be quite irritating at time you know, when you needa get somethingscanned and you dun have a scanner ..like making copies of some notes, or music scores or some other stuff urgently ..and you like need it the next day by noon and you dun have time to shuffle up and down ? yeah ..it would come in handy, could place it in my room, let the whole family use it ..siblings could surely make make use of it, school stuff that needs to be photocopied or work or whatever ..yeah, think i'll use my savings or what to get it if i find that its turns out to be something that the whole family could use, and if its something that we would need ..than maintain it on my own or something hahaha, share it though ..yeah, maybe not getting what i want in the end ..getting something that could benefit the family ahaha ..ok i am trying to change and i am finding it weird doing so ..cause it feels not me haha, as like i am not used to it and i tend to revert back ..yeah, heard of the song by M.J, man in the mirror ?yeah, though its a different situation, but the main thing is, if you wanna make a change, you gotta start with yourself ..so obviously, if i wanna change the way others view me, i gotta start by changing myself first ..yeah, i wanna change for the better hahaha, sounds like a big joke i know ..but i do care alot about how others view me, especially a certain few, and even more for a special someone ..which i hate to love but i cant love to hate ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 22:47
