Wednesday, September 05, 2007
recently, i visited the Caesar's Gun Gallery website. saw the rapiers that they advertised online. including kenshin's reverse blade,and sepheroth's masume. the one's that really got my attention though,were the rapiers. dad used to have one. the army gave it to him. some ceremonial rapier. over time, many years actually, it tarnished. and also because they kept shifting house, the rapier's blade bent.anyway, when i was young, in pri school. i was roughly in pri 3 or 4.the sword was around my height hahaha. i took it out of the flower vase one day.and i just stared at it in awe. though as i said, it was tarnished all over.and the cloth around the handle, and the ribbons from it, were a little dusty.i just went, wa. of cause, itchy fingers me, i took it out. and the weight made me, wa, even more. it felt like power was there, in my hands.that day, left a fascination for rapiers in me. i was like, i wanna get one one day. wanna get it from the army so i dun have to pay.and if i am not wrong. melvin has one too, also by the army. of cause, its not like just any army boy can get one, i still haven't figured out how to.anyway, yeah, saw so many on the website. one of them caught my eye.yeah as you might have guess already, the design, its really simple.it doesn't have any fancy engraving on the blade or some fancy metal work for the guard. its just pure and simple.think its gonna cost around 300 bucks. shall check it out when i am free one day.maybe get it, it would be a nice display item. use a vertical stand for it.alright, its been quite a few days. i think 3 or 4, since the piece of flesh,connecting the shoulder to the neck, on my left, started to stiffen and rise way above the one on my right. its unsightly, its irritating, and its sometimes uncomfortable.in short, crudely phrased. its an eye sore hahaha. yesh, i dont really care about discomfort when compared to appearance.if its any higher, people would be like, yee, look at him, he's a freak.thats not what i call those who unfortunately, have some deformed features that cannot be recorrected.i was born with "spiderman / i love you" hands. both hands. though mine was corrected in time, luckily. so if i call them a freak.what am i? worst than them. pot calling the kettle black.ok, hope the 6 pieces of tiger balm plaster i bought would be strong enough.if not, it would be time to visit the pretty doc hahah.167 today, had an unusual amount of people. it was like not packed at all.almost everyone had 2 seats to themselves at all times hahahha. i paid 1.10 again hahaha, from tanjong pagar to nee soon. and i didn't get caught ! phew hahaha. saved quite a few cents.look at it in dollars, it did be little. 0.50 dollars.look at it in cents, it would be alot more. 50 cents hahaha.ok, thats deceiving myself, but it makes my pocket feel better.alright, i got so bored last night, i decided to google blog search "swo".found a few entries in a few blogs. all are about the recent concert.by the same group of people, guess they belong to 2 different cliques in that group.didn't bother to search the about themselves section. some of the blogs are rather, hahah, tough for an uncreative guy like me.they got like teddy bear pictures instead of words. so you click on the pictures to enter another section of the blog.i got so fed up with one of them, i was clicking on every single square cm of anything picture on that page. cause it dodnt bring me straight to the blog body.it brought me to this intro page. and i wanted to read the entry.but i could find the words like say "posts" or something like that. so after a few clicks, i got pissed hahaha. turned out to be this 4 little bears on the right. most of them, if not all are girls. one of them, i guess, ain't a singaporean.and about 3 or 4 of them were drooling over one of our t-bone players hahah.very cheesy phrases they used. clearly, they idolised him hahaha. but well, nothing wrong about that. at least they are fans of a good player.ok, i was thinking about something on my way back home on monday.i realised that, the yck people in wo, are have if not, are, disappearing from wo.maybe they are on break or what other reasons there are. but yeah, they are disappearing one by one. i just remember i thought of it.was surfing friendster, when i saw shirley's account appear on the update thingy.so i just visited her account, and i realised, oh yeah, i was thinking of that.so i blogged out this paragraph. its just feels weird sometimes.to have so few of your kind in another group with so many of another.sometimes, it just feels weird and at times, it feels even sickening.its like, what the hell, where's everyone else that was here.some are still in, but its like they are not. cause they rarely come.and there's something about me and my clarinet. i have been playing that damn black wooden tube for quite a few years.yet i am not good enough at it yet. basics are in a mess, big mess. i wonder how the clarinet section in yck is doing now. been a long time since i seen them. didn't really have anyone to teach us when we were sec 1.ddin't even have instruments that could work haha. a few batches back, we got lucky, got new instruments and stuffs.and another thing has been on my mind for many months. i just dont really know what i want yet. its either, i want out, or i stay and make it better then it is. its a waste to drop out actually, after all that i have done.really wanna continue it, make it better, maintain it. yet at the same time, yes, i think i want out as well.victory belongs to those who perservere. i always told her, dun give up, keep going, it'll pay off. yes, if you keep trying, hard enough, it'll pay off. the question is, what am i doing this for? whats the reason not whats the pay out.its right to say that the fire in me has partially died. hmmm, i need to give it more thought. shall see what's their next step.they are mainly mice, and there are some that are NATO.seriously, i dunch know where is it heading to, my guess, nothing good.
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 23:11
