Monday, February 19, 2007
its 12 plus in the afternoon now .. everyone should be coming at around 1 plus 2 plus i think ..the house has me the maid and my elder brother left, and i am dead bored ..gosh at times i just feel like i lost control of my myself ..my mind just feels like a runaway train at those times,and it makes me feel so down when it happens ..there's a song that has the words, runaway train, in it right ? cant remember le ..think there's nothing much in life, its just a boring cycle ..gotta find a way to make it interesting or something ..i need to find a reason to live life, be it because i wanna do it for someoneelse or for he benefit of myself or whatever ..right now its just, i dun see the reason why i should be breathingbecause myself ain't the reason that i would wanna continue doing it for ..the reason will never, be me ..linkin park's crawling, would best be the song that best describes the feelings that i experience ..have you ever experience those itchy itchy feeling somewhere on your skin,yet there are no signs of insect bites or rash ..and no matter how you scratch at that spot, it never seems enough to satisfy it ?now, magnify that to a degree that you really cannot handle, its different for all of us, so imagine it ..magnify it till you go mad, and imagine it to be happening all over you,in your head your eyes your veins you thoughts beneath your skin,its everywhere in you, its you ..no matter what you do, you will never be able to shake it off, its just lingers on ..now thats what i am experiencing when the feeling comes ..just that its not itchiness ..gotta get some k, at least get lost once, wonder what would it be like ..wayne always wanted to enter space, be an astronout or something,he got lost and there were aliens all around him, 1 eye, 3 eye, green skin hahah ..another friend was surrounded with naked babes and he just banged them all ..another went under the sea and he was swimming with all the sea creatures ..wonder what would mine be, in paradise with you? than i would surely be going back for more k all the time, till i drop dead one day ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 12:28
