Wednesday, February 21, 2007
thought of something, was thinking about it, something came to mind ..oh, i dunno which is right hahah, ok lets just use, a thought came to mind ..about love or the word love and what it may be or whatever it is ..i think its pretty stupid and childish already, this love thing ..its like a word of deception through and through without any real meaning in it ..i dont mean the love that parents show to their children, i am saying love between a man and a woman ..i think that kinda love is becoming so fake ..the word is pretty much used loosely nowadays that we never know if its true ..i may say i love you because i know thats what you wanna hear but do i really mean i love you from my heart of hearts ?sometimes we are walking and stuff and you just happen to hear someone say it to another ..wonder whats your thought .. so liberal? does he/she really mean it?where does this love come from? awww, so sweet ..whats mine, hahah, wish i could relieve those moments of deception hahaha ..even at times i question myself when i am in a relationship ..where does this, love, come from?i said i love her, i said it to another before, is this love the same asthe love i had the others or are they different, if so than in what way?can her love for me or mine for her be measured by any means?are we just deceiving each other when we say i love you?if what i have been feeling was love, than great, if it isn't than what was it?so i guess its pretty much right and wrong to say,i never loved any of those girls i had a relationship with ..it cant be proven right or wrong ..maybe all this while i have been doing what i have always done, experimenting and experimenting to find whats different in the feeling, this love ..this experiment was actually planned and carried outwith 3 relationships before but still i could find the difference ..the difference between having a fling, an average relationship, and a near serious relationship, yeah couldn't find the difference ..maybe experiments for feelings cant be kept too scientific ..so for now, it would be to my personal opinion, that this love thing,doesn't really exist actually, that its pretty much a fairy tale for most of us ..and maybe i never ever loved anyone, the only reason for the sense of lostfelt during a break up would be because i grew too attached to the girl ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 18:22
