Tuesday, April 10, 2007
man had a dream again, to sum it up, it's a reminder of what i did and wanna do ..yeah that was what my dream was about ..and because of it, i remember the packet of cigarettes in my bag ..though i have been wanting to get rid of it for a long time,and its like in a pretty easy to spot place in my bag, for some reasons i just didn't throw it away everytime i stepped out of the house ..ahahaha, its like i used 1 out of 15 sticks only ahhaha ..nevermind the lesser the better, gotta stop totally, not even smoke occassionally ..that girl sure wouldn't like a guy to smoke, which girl really does even if she says its ok ..its horrible to kiss a smoker too i guess haha, stinks and stuff ..okie i dunch why but you are the first thing that came to my mind when i woke up ..and this feeling i recognise very well already ..so silly of me, woke up, thought of you, turned and switched on my lappy ..was hoping you would be online ..after waiting a while for you to sign in, i just took the pillow of my face and thought,what the hell, its so early la, she wont be up and in msn so early ..ahaha, that was like 6:50am ahaha, so i went back to sleep,woke up 30 mins later, and here i am again ..yeah anyway, that feeling, its back again ..its a sweet feeling yet it brings fear, phobia already i guess ..once bitten twice shy ..ahh, my stomach is going again, hasn't been well this few days ..stomach is hungry and is growling loudly hahha ..think my irregular meal times have totally messed it up ..YCK's SYF today, and i would be making waffles hahaha ..well hope they dont ask why i am not there to support them haha ..I AM WORKING !! EARNING CASH !! HAHAHHAHA ..not that i dun wanna support anyway, i see no point to put my work aside,and turn up for the event that with my pressence or not, would not be affected ..i believe what would happen would happen like what was said ..and i believe that the band is well prepared already ..now all i can say here, hopefully it turns out true ..congrats to ur GWH ahhahaha ..ok, my mother is nagging again, i really cant stand it, 24-7 leh ..haiz, i miss staying with aunt jenny and her family and ah ma ..though they do quarrel and stuff at times, the place is usually filled with laughter ..and above all, i feel loved there, maybe i am quite attached to them as well ..yet having lived my first 11 years there and the years after, here ..it seems i am no where, anywhere would be fine for me ..if i have the money now, i would be staying in my own house ..get those like 1 room 1 hall 1 kitchen plus 1 store room kinda house ..small small de, enough space for one or 2 people to stay ..yeah, frankly speaking i cant wait to shift out and stay on my own ..when my "wings" have harden, thats the first thing i would do, get a house ..it would come in as a neccessity anyway, when i am married ..ok, for a guy that doesn't wanna be squashed between two women ..no mountain is home to two tigers ..in fact, if its possible, i would like to stay in a different area ..like they are now in nee soon, maybe i would like to be at bishan ?but thats too far from swo ahha, ok i'll be driving hahah ..or maybe back at amk ? amk is pretty convenient to me haha ..or if my wife wants, near her mother loh, but not same house haha ..am i fooling myself ? i think i am at times ..such a good girl you know, too good for me to accept actually ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 07:23
