Wednesday, April 11, 2007
felt very insulted by what marcus said the other day ..
he's friend and another group of that friend's friend happened to be at m work place ..
so one of them found me familiar and that friend said i was marcus's brother ..
what marcus said was this ..
so embarrassing man wa lau, mistake me as him, working at gelare ..
i took offence to that and nearly shot back ..
whats the difference between the money i earn and that which u earn ?
is yours any cleaner than mind ?
whats so low down about the job? that i serve others for a living?
is the one who is served, any greater than the one who serves ?
for if the the one who serves does not exists,
where than would be the one that is served ?
whats so embarrassing about the job? its an honest means of living ..maybe we have enjoyed to much of a good life to bow our heads and serve ..ok i just kept quiet cause i was to get a car ride to the MRT, sucks ..ok, i saw through someone already, finally ..i found out the secret someone in that someone, most likely ..should i test the water? yet they say curiousity killed the cat ..so better not? you know, it may turn out to be quite ironic ..i really dont understand how on earth it can actually happen ..this feeling thing is simply amazing ..well, i can only say what i said before, i dont understand love ..amazing amazing amazing ..oh man, seriously la, though i love working even if its like 10 hrs at one go ..ok, though my mind can take it, and its what keeps my body going ..i have realised that my body has begun to buckle a little already ..yeah, got flu already, and i have been working ith a headache almost the whole day ..got burned by the dish washing tap a few times ..its easier to remove the stains with hot water ..so yeah, didnt check the tap and i just used it, head hurt la ..and yeah, blurred up a little, could absorb the orders as i couldn't concentrate ..it was like, the most basic waffle dish and i was there stoning at it ..yesterday also the same thing, didnt have enough rest at night ..so was like yeah, waffle day, really chiong de ..nearing the end, the headache set in and i was like losing momentum ..so yeah, after a while i would forget to press the timers, and the only thing that would remind me a waffle is in there, would be the burning smell ahaha ..work again tomorrow, or rather later, since its thursday already ..the one good thing that has resulted from all that hard work ?i had my pay rise already, super low, 5 dollars an hour ..thats what the senior part / full time staff are paid heehee ..got praised again by the manager again today hahaha ..danny lefted early so he gave instructions to grace to man the outlet and close it ..ended up i was the one taking charge of stuffs, giving the orders, of cause there were some stuffs that i didn't know how to do ..so those i asked grace about it and she taught me ..somehow i think i made an enemy there not by my own choice ..she just doesn't wanna let me help her at the waffle station though i am told to, maybe it was because of what kat said ..kat said this in front of her, waffle station shi ni de ti pan,anything you need to stock up, check and tell them ( the rest ) to get for you ..so yeah, maybe thats why she ain't very happy ..ok, studies, something interesting came up again today ..though i am not very sure of it, its really taking up alot of my brain juice ..so many things on my mind with the headache ..you, studies, everything else, and the heaedache, could concentrate on anything ..yeah, anyway, that stupid call totally spoiled my day ..and i had to msged this other someone, guess that someone must be like quite fed up with me ..why disturb her of all people right, you tell me ..the job offer is speaking of a pay of around 2.4k a month ..its so tempting seriously, i really want that money ..yet, it would seem like treason,treason to the 3 of them and the one point that connects them ..breach of trust and everything else ..have you ever seen how wild dogs work as a pack on documentries ?hyenas or how ever its spelled, wild dogs ..have you ever heard of them attacking each other for a poor reason ?thats what i am feeling if i were to do it ..groom another that may on day bite at the hand that raised me ..see, its you again, its always you ..woke up again and the first thing i did was to come online to find you ..have been thinking of you every other day for many many weeks already ..why cant i just get you out of my head ?you are too good for me, and i definately dunch wanna ruin your future ..arghhh, why why why ..best of all, once bitten twice shy, this is the exact setting as the previous one ..the cross and the crucifix again, why why why ..i wish that one day you would just blow up and hit me hard ..give me a slap or something, give me a reason to transform this liking into hate ..this one isn't a crush, this i am sure ..the feeling is all too familiar ..the same feeling that would drive me to do anything for that last one ..i know it all to well, and its horrible ..its like an eclispe, blocking out the sun light from my life, arghhh ..please dun happen, so painful, i can feel the pain ..bought 2 CDs from HMV during my break time ..just had to take a break, that short break gave me some relief ..dunch think i can make it to band this sat already ..change of schedule, gonna work longer, 1 to 12 like that, on saturday ..friday would be the NIE band thing ..ok, he is asking me if i wanna participate in the WMC with NIE ..back to europe for 250 SGD, quite a good deal ..its around june or july, cant remember ..should i or should i not? its a pretty good deal ..dun feel like going though ..away from home away from you ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 23:58
