Wednesday, April 11, 2007
was speaking to socky just now, she's quite a nice girl i realised ..chatting with her surely did lighten my mood alot ..okie, she had to off the com cause her dad was scolding her already ..hmm, decided to read my previous posts in march ..realise the entire month of march had hell alot of entries ..so just read from the bottom up, realised alot of things ..like i was pretty unappreciative of a friend's concern for the one thing we love ..dunno if that upset that friend, really not sure ..and i was still not taking relationship that seriously,still wanted to experiment with it, but i am not doing that now ..in fact i made some committments that woud restraint me from doing certainthings when i am in a relationship again ..yeah, just read back once in a while to see in what way have i changed ..some of those stuff, when i read it now, i find it pretty childish ..like getting the tongue piercing, my gosh, why did i even think of that ..in fact, i feel like removing my ear piercing soon,i still dont regret the tattoo though ahah, it was quite an experience ..i am very afraid of needles for some reason ..or even if someone were to use that finger and like point it close to my nose bridge, i would feel a weird sensation, dislike it, my own finger too ahah ..some of those things i wanna change, if its still in me ..like drinking !!! i still have the wanting to drink at times ..yet i wanna change that, cause i wanna be a better guy ..would benefit my relationship next time, can you imagine me partying the night away with my friends and not really bothering aboutmaybe my gf or wife, so mean of me right ..the most important of all, gotta change my attitude towards studying ..cause if i am dont have any qualifications, i cant provide a good lifefor the girl that would be with me next time ..hell i dunch wanna see her suffer with me you know, plus maybe our kids ..you know, when i was in secondary school, i had like 2 dollars a day up to sec 4 ..and i would watch in envy as my friends ate what they wanted ..i could only eat till like 1.50 ? i needed to save the rest for rainy days,which was quite frequent in my family during those times ..yeah, people just needed to ask their parents for money to getbuy their project stuff or extra note book or whatever ..i had to dig into my savings, and i found it hard to ask my parents for cash ..yeah, seeing my parents worked their arse off, seeing them feeling down, sometimes quarrel over money ..i really dont want that to happen in my own family next time ..and the only way you can do it here? study and get some papers to back u up ..you never know when they might come in handy ..ok, so far that's two girls on the, like mitchell, chart ..one i am super sure of it, the other i am sure though not confirm ..yet the one that i like belongs to none of the two, so sad right ..well, i actually dunno about her feelings haha, so yeah ..i mean, i like her but i dunno if she likes me ..hmmmm, girls, i really cant comprehend your haha, interesting i must say ..and i wouldn't say your are the weaker of the 2 gender ..cause the guys just don understand your, for the very same reason,how can guys then, be the stronger of the 2? lets not say physical wise la ..and i actually admire the ladies alot for one thing ok,they actually can go through the process of having babies ..carry the child for like 8 to 9 months, than give birth to it ..some guys even faint upon seeing the blood, talk about being the stronger gender ..hahaha, so yeah, salute to the ladies ..ok, sounds weird, mitchell talking good about ladies, but yeah, salute your ..should only have mother's day tsk tsk ..
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:28
