Friday, April 13, 2007
just got up not long ago, had my dinner, finally.hmmm, love is such an idiotic feeling haha.yet its one of the best and most powerful feeling one could experience.hang on in there. your perserverance would pay off.die, this sunday meeting sure kanna.no crew members list cause no dates, sian.anyway, looks like i would have to report in sick as well.think i caught the flu or something already.keep sneezing, runny nose, works like burst water pipe at times haha.and yet at other times, its like a clogged drain.well, shall see how. hope i can get up on sunday morning haha.wanna practice ida, still cant run at some parts haiz.is it that i am not capable enough or what?arghhh, wish you were here by my side.shall add blog music soon, gonna dig out that song again.actually asked like all my catholic and protestant friends for a song like that.not a church song. its a song to sort of like, encourage a person,give the person strength and stuff. sometimes music helps alot, anyway, its a sort of mood remedy as well, i guess.yeah, so i actually went great lengths to get that song haha.asked around for like 2, 3 days, saved all of the songs i received in a folder,then slowly listened carefully to all the lyrics.and that was the best haha. so yeah, hope that all those who are down due to whatever reasons, if your happen to visit my blog, hope the music gives your encouragement :)gosh, you really dunno who you are huh.guess i kept the secret too well. so much so that only 4 people know of it, including me hahah. ok sounds pretty silly actually.its quite possible that others may know of it though.sometimes its quite evident through ones behavior towards that particular someone.yeah, its all about psychology. well, hope you would find out one day.maybe i should drop hints already. here's some hints, you are a musician.yeah, hmmm, what else? you are rare !! hhaha, quite rare in local bands haha.ok, this is like, what kinda hints are these ??? hahaha but yeah.go figure, this alone would narrow down the search by alot.i know you will read this, dunch ask me how i know if you know.i just know haha, and obviously its from humans.why dun i describe you? that would be like so damn obvious.there's one prominent feature in all the girls i like though.i have mentioned it somewhere in my blog before hahah.if you have the patience to search it out, good for you :)yeah, so slowly link the hints and you will trace out the mystery girl.okie, would like to thank someone haha.sometimes the people that we least expect would show even a little concern,actually are the ones that would be the first to express concern.i never expected you to remember it haha or rather the two details. ahaha.for example, if you never asked me to search for the form, i would never have done so and probably would not be able to reply to our other friend so quickly, yes i remembered after a while that i tore it.haha, was very very angry when dad gave what was supposed to be their reply.and my studies, MY studies you know, its supposed to be somethingthat i am supposed to be responsible for, and take care of it myself.yet you actually remember it better than i did. yeah, those who have known us to be logger heads would be like hahah.what the hell right? hahahah, yeah.just wanna say a big thanks to you for the concern.i guess if you were to ask me about my studies many many months back,i would have passed it off as sacarcism. cant wait to gloat at my down fall right?hahha, well, people change, so do the way we react to the actions of others.our opinion of their actions and everything else changes.in short the way we view people ahhaah.and actually i still cant understand how things became so bad haha, comical.well well, think this is the end of my stomach problems already.got rid of everything, hope this is the end hahah.cant wait for the next swo chalet. need a break.chalets are fun times, get to bond more together, spend more time with each other. the next chalet, i am not going anywhere man.just staying in the house, dunch wanna walk and walk.ok maybe if someone wants to check out the sun rise in the morning than maybe i would go along, depends on who as well la tsk tsk.oh yeah, lini and i were like damn bored today.so we were chatting and chatting, than chat until about me.ask alot of questions la, than talk until the subject of tattoo was brought up.she was talking about this female customer with tattoo.than she asked if i had, than i was like ya haha.so kept talking la haha, people often think that tattooing is a painful thing.nah it isn't the least bit pain, save the those shading effects.that feels like rubbing your arm against the road very hard and fast.yeah, anyway, she was like, wa you got that innocent face you know,cant tell you so havoc. you rock man. i was like er ok. whats so cool about these?yeah, i know i got a guai kia look but yeah, never judge the book by its cover.of cause, only my gf would know the deepest layer reserved for her.you know its pretty interesting. i have learned something.sometimes people get into a relationship not because both parties love each other.yeah, there needs to be some feelings to spark it off. however, it can also take off after that due to other reasons.maybe committment to each other? mutual respect, admiration for the other.yeah its alot of things, but most cases i know of, start with some feelings first.if you give me a choice right, i would choose to develope a special relationship with a friend i have know for quite some time. the longer the better.at least then you would know the person better, and so when you are ina special relationship with that person. you know the Dos and Don'ts and how does the person react to what situation and what does it mean.sometimes you get those relationships where the guy and girl meets and gets together after a month or so? or even lesser? than its like, the hardly know each other and so they cant understand each other.and that usually ends up with arguements and a short relationship.yeah, you need time to learn about the other part.and during friendships, though you may not learn everything about that person.at least you can be sure that your judgement of that person is more or less neutral in a way. there isn't feelings to interrupt your judgement.ok thats just for me la haha, dunch know about you guys.sorry i just like to ponder over such minor stuff.the next girl with me is gonna get lucky man hahaha.reviewing all my idealogy and reflecting on my pass relationships.finding out what i did wrong in those relationships so i would repeat them.not sure if i get this one, will all these effort come to waste.this one is different, very much different, unique.never came across such a case. and i have to admit that therefore, i am at a lost as to how to proceed. if i knew of a better way,i wouldn't be having such a headache about this matter.ok i only decided recently that i shuld go ahead and try wooing her.all this while i have kept my feelings surpressed as best as i could.yeah, this one is tough, hard to read her, deep and pretty abstract.its like trying to decode a series of MOS codes without the know how.it just seems like random rhythm to me. on off on off on off.alright i think i better try to sleep. sure auto wake up around 7am.why? cause i am for some reasons, anticipating her to come online at 7am.though i know she wouldnt be, can some one psycho my body clock?and oh yes !! i threw away the packet of cigarettes i think 2 days back.finally ahhahah, i am so happy haha, oh the lighter too hahahah.
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