Sunday, May 27, 2007
as some of your might have realised by now. my entries are kinda all over the place. for example,what i might blog now, would be what i wanna say of an event like 3 days ago.thats pretty obvious with my dreams haha. its just that, some things choose to come to me at certain times. so for the previous few entries, and the next few to come, its best to disregard the date ahahah, some are accurate though, its pretty obvious.like band is on sunday, so yeah, stepped on his saliva TODAY. sort it yourselves alright? sorry for the trouble. till i sort myself out, it would be pretty much like this.ah i remember what was my other dream, besides the cracked bells.in my dream, i was in school uniform haha, sec school.was on the 2 level. me and my pals heard a string ensemble going,so we just ran to the window. strangely our window over looks the hall like area.so yeah, there were about 3 or 4 rows of them, like 30 to 50 players.and they were either violins, violas or anything string that needed the elbow for support. cause of the way they bowed they could be string basses or the like. so yeah, i think i was sec 1 or 2 in the dream cause i couldn't really look over the window edge hahaha. i needed a chair to stand on.anyway it ended with us going like, oooo ahhhh waaaa.band today was suay, stepped on tian ze's saliva. and tiring and boring and i was feeling pretty restless for some reasons.was anticipating something. waiting for something.it came, but it wasn't what i wanted so i just kept waiting and waiting.anyway, received a call from kat during sectionals.yeah, the black arse regu has been fired, bye sucker.that means one more thing though, besides him being gone.i get to clock more working hours cause the outlet would be short handed.i dun mind exhausting my brains as long as it takes my mind off things.ok i am super broke already, dead broke. just gotta hold out till tuesday.than my funds are in ahahha. and then friday haha, more funds.and then any day between the 1st and 10th of june, half of it would be gone, haiz.the governess has given her approval so yeah, gonna get it haha. maybe do the shopping on my own though ahahah. see how, let me think.before i spend any money though, gotta throw aside some cash for my ezlink.always run out of cash for transport, irritating. find a day to go out with family.than i can get the shirt as well. free hahaha, ok thats very cheapo i know.needa lessen the pressure, i actually feel like putting the shirt on hold.cause i wanna get it using my own cash, and i am not very confident that after buying the jacket, i would be able to last till month end if i were to buy other stuff.gonna watch shrek with her hahah. dunch know how am i gonna last though.since i am not a fan of cartoons like this. she actually was thinking of watching POC with me, till her friend came and disturb.ah, irritating, yet it was a blessing in disguise hahaha. cause i would be watching it with my friend who owes me money ahahha. getting it back when i see him haha.good also, never seen him for quite a while.anyway yeah, shrek. just hope i am not as green as he is at the end of the show.to me, cartoons are for little children, its not true, but i dunch know where that perception came from hahaha. well as long as we can spend some time together, i really dun mind.work schedules keep clashing. luckily we work near each other, though not for long.shall treasure this convenience for as long as i can.its nice to just head to the esplanade roof after work, just to hang around, chit chat, enjoy the breeze, the peace and quiet.yeah, work ends at 9 or 10. weekdays, there won't be many people up there.its quite a nice place for heart to heart talks and stuff like that.ho ho ho, a very naughty idea just came to mind while i was bathing hahaha.pray that no one askes for a drink from me on the bus in australia,and that i remember the contents. cause if i dun, i would just hand it over.what a sight, what a waste ahahha. what do the russians do to keep warm in the cold?volka hahahah, they hand you shots of volka instead of water in their shops.like everywhere in russia hahaha. gotta find a pretty tight flask though.dun wanna spill any. i don't really like volka actually, so it would be something else.and its gonna be on the rocks hahaha. that is of cause, i really do it, which would be of a very low chance. might as well just drink it straight from the bottle right ahahah.ok, a little bit the thinking too much ahahah. ok sorry was just mad.gonna do some shopping in aussie, gonna get a birthday present for aunt jenny.my dearest aunt, what shall i get her. shall see what they have there.shall get a shirt for each of my siblings. for dad, hmm he wants something from the airport, duty free, so yeah haha.his is settled :X hahahaha. shall see what they have in aussie for him.i might not have enough cash though, so its either i get something for them or i dun.of cause she and aunt gets something. cant understand why i fell for her.i seriously don't, not that there is something bad about her or what that caused me to say this. rather, i am wondering what sparked this feelings. amazing and interesting.is there really a cupid ? hahaha angel with a bow and arrow of love.come to think of it, i just understanded her reactions in the past.i realised her reactions when they were shown, but i couldn't understand them. could only draw a few conclusions.now i fully got it, and i was partly right ahahah.i hate back stabbers. i said it before, i'll say it again. i hate them to the core.i guess you never expected us to have a good chat.well now the truth is out, too bad for you. your poison back fired.lets see how you counter your own poison, plus mine. i never imagine you would do something like that. what ever the reason, you are no longer friend to me.how dare you try split us apart. i am not a prize, this isn't a game.what goes around, comes around, your lies have caught up with you.your scheming ways have brought you down. i no longer would be bothered about you. for they say, to not be bothered is worst than to hate someone.about 4 days ago, i found part of myself had changed, i managed to firmly say no as well as to bring my feelings across. yesh i was very pissed with being patient and felt like i wasn't taken seriously.so that was it, like two to three months already. waited so long. so yeah, that was what i did. of cause the receiver wasn't too pleased.well too bad, you have used up your chances, dun come knocking for more.i ain't that innocent and agreeing no more. cheese to the old me. i realised that there are some i need to condemn already. not that i never realised this, but rather, i never felt it neccessary. there are some in this world, that just keep taking bites out of others because they feel this others wouldn't retaliate at all. well, do not take my tolerance as my weak point.there's a limit and sadly, to my disadvantage, the sky is my limit at times.so yes, the change is neccessary, some need to be black listed.it ain't something that's very nice to do, but hey, why should i treat you any better than the way you treat me. i look like a fool doing that. fuck that.it seems pretty boring already, not much of a kick already. its good that i made that move. now its just the transition period. once that's done, i would be pretty free i guess. dun wanna be more than ordinary.i share the same sentiments as a friend or two,each has his own point and take, there are of cause common points.just wish that one factor would mature as fast as possible.cause the mature rate would determine how soon the other factor can kick in.speed up will you? cause the fire is dying. ever seen beauty and the beast? the rose in the jar. yes, its withering, its petal peeling off one by one, the magic, fading.i find it pretty amusing at times, that commitment can sometimes be measured.be it through monetary value, or actions or anything else.i think the only one think possible to use as a gauge would be effort.yeah of cause, it doesn't mean you put in 1 unit of effort you get 1 unit of result.you can throw in 100 units of effort yet get 0 units of results,does that mean then, that you are not committed to what ever you are doing?i sometimes laugh when i hear of such things.of cause not laugh out loudly, just laughing to myself.i really do not get the way some people think.
her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 20:47
