Notes N Wheels

Saturday, June 30, 2007

finally blogged after like 10 days hahaha.
hmmm, let me see what have i done the past 3 days or so.
oh yes, did some shopping on friday hahah.
finally settled for a shirt at GUESS. cost a bomb hahaha.
first item i bought at GUESS i think.
one day i shall have enough for an armani jeans or something from there hahah.
enough spare cash that is hahaha.
did some window shopping today, was at suntec.
saw this shirt at Esprit marina square, was really what i was looking for.
the thing is, 80 dollars, it really wasn't worth it.
tried a pair of converse shoes, just tried for fun hahah.
i felt like, a sec school kid again ahhaha. and i felt weird in them.
thought i looked really weird. too thin and long looking, the shoes.
gonna watch transformers tomorrow then maybe shop again ahha.
wanna check out some brands, see what they got, some are pretty interesting.
currently cracking my brains on, what should i wear to the beach this monday night.
cause its like i'll be out before that, most likely in town again.
i cant wear beach wear to town, and i dunch wanna wear jeans to the beach.
the sand and all. oh yes, that reminds me, i need to get slippers.
hahah get those cheap cheap kind. think i shall get a pair of bermudas.
yup, keep going out in jeans and shoes. its getting a bit boring.
so yup yup hahaha, shopping shopping.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 23:54

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

well, i don't know what to blog about.
actually there isn't anything much to blog about.
dont think i can meet the guys tomorrow, family arrangements.
anyway, yeah, nothing really eventful happened.
just spending time with her yesterday and today.
just wanna say that she's a really girl to have as a girl friend,
and that i am very lucky to have met her, not to mention, thankful.
not to my work place though. met her at work.
i'll be missing her a great deal i believe. not seeing her for a week.
but that's something i gotta get used to since i would have to serve NS.
everything about her, lets not talk physical, she fits what i want.
regarding looks and stuff, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
she is, as beautiful as can be, and i cant ask for more.
and i realised something, i tend to lose this control from time to time.
its gonna break free one day hahah.
okie, shall end here.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:52

Monday, June 18, 2007

as i thought, dad found out about the tattoo.
i think it was sat morning, than dad came in to wake martin up.
i wasn't wearing my shirt and my blanket wasn't covering my top.
just nice, my back was facing martin, so when i got up,
is saw dad and i knew, just went back to sleep anyway.
so yeah, he called me over to the dinning table and he just went on and on.
asked me stuff and all but obviously i didn't reply.
cause if i did, his reply would be, dont come and tell me......
lol, so its pretty useless replying anyway. unless it those that just requires a yes or no.
then the same topic came up again. driving driving driving.
i hate studying, and i hate anything test.
and the pace of the driving lessons is so slow. like so many god damn topics.
and he wants me to enter army asap and to get my driving done asap.
like how is that possible, if i enter army, driving would have to stop.
and you want both to be done asap at the same time.
then he asked, you wanted to follow the band to australia, did i stop?
yes at one point he did, but i gave the politically correct answer, nope.
then he continued, i asked marcus to send you there,
and you never even tell us what flight and everything.
my reply, i told mummy already.
his reply, ya verbally right, we are getting old already, write it down somewhere,
you tell us things today, by tomorrow we would forget.
i was like, old god, please dont do this to me. ok i'll give you the itinerary.
so just listened and listened and listened.
kinda reminds me of when i was made to attend church classes from sec 1 to 4.
we had to attend mass as it was before lessons, on sundays.
so we would all be like, what the fuck, is that old man,
in white robes, fucking talking about? okie, sometiems he wore purple.
depends on his mood i guess hahaha, no la, its for the different occasions.
anyway, he has been saying many times that he is getting impatient,
i have been listening to that many times.
you know, this trouble was created by your own hands.
i didn't ask to be born, neither did i ask you to take me home,
neither did i ask for the driving and everything. in fact said i didn't wanna learn.
so yeah, you come blame me for your self created problems.
and i am getting quite pissed listening to this crap.
think i shall get the driving done, enter the army,
and try to stay in camp as many days as possible.
ok, maybe not a good idea. book out and stay else where.
irritating to stay in this house. really feel like running back to aunt's place.
at least i get the basic edible home cook food by a mother. two mothers in fact.
aunty and her mother hahah, my grandma that is hahaha.

hmmm, i realise something very very bad.
i have been viewing some of heir kind with this negative feeling.
i dunch know what exactly is the word to use for it.
the feeling sort of contains a few things, no respect for their kind,
tend to view them as inferior in some ways. cant point out the others.
cause i have yet to identify exactly. maybe its what we expect of their kind.
the supposedly intellectually superior does have its flaws in other factors.
the thing is, we in general do not acknowledge them to have this flaws.
if you are up there, then you should be this good.
you have no room for flaws in any aspect. that kinda thinking.
not to mention the black sheeps of the flock does spoil the image too.
at least black sheep to me. to each his own.
shall deal with it when i feel like it. how bias but i wouldn't give more care to it.

hmmm, wonder if its possible to manupilate.
i think its highly possible actually. around those you feel comfortable with,
one lets down their guard. this few are quite innocent. age is no obstacle.
then again, it serves no purpose. for a greater cause or a personal cause.
to make use of others for one's own benefits is utterly despicable.
i wonder how does one learn to be more, cautious,
like to be able to detect that they are being manupilated.
and if a person can learn how to prevent themself from being manupilated,
then it would be easier for them to manupilate others right?
like its easier to prevent your com from being hack if you learn how to hack.
a naive, innocent and emotional one is usually pretty
easy to take control of i feel. because they are naive and innocent,
its easy to get into their thoughts, influence them and stuff.
because they are emotional, its easy to stir their feelings.
unsettle them then help them settle themselves. let them feel comfortable with you.
of cause not without thought, choice of words are important.
i think if one feels comfortable with another,
its easier to get that person to help you do stuffs.
and i feel, that usually not much thought of caution would be given to it,
since they feel comfortable around that person.
oh, its just playing with a person like a cat with a ball.
mice is too bloody.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:09

Sunday, June 17, 2007

band practice today was pretty fast.
think the song that took up the longest time was the fourth symphony.
the others were pretty much alright, quite fast. yup.
did i leave anything behind, let me think...
hmmm, i dont think so. stand, tux, music scores, bag.
actually everything is home. yup, shall transfer the scores tonight.
meeting was well. some people just cant keep quiet,
while some just cant hide their feelings.
well, if one decides to link committment with number of tickets sold.
then well, i cant be bothered actually.
i cant be bothered if you sold 6 or whatever the figure.
as for that mouth that kept shooting off. its gonna be more than shut up next time.
come to think of it, it was actually two mouths.
wouldn't have been nice to express what i was really feeling.
that would leave some shocked. a smile doesn't mean i am fine with the game.
it just shows that i do not know how else to react
as the true expression is being kept secret.
cheating little girls hahah. that was quite funny actually.
never knew the "skill" could be used to sell tickets.
so are your selling the music or what. wonder how some sell.
never liked promoting. hmmm. not very good with it i guess.
1 ticket. 4 to go. yeah, 4 more if i remember correctly.
gotta run through the list. hope that kiddo's mum allows him.
than i got a real silly looking 1, compared to a 6.
wow, that's something. like what the fuck. not ur business, shut the fuck up.
this round's gonna be an all time low, weather station says so.
temperature should be near 0 degrees. wouldn't be higher then 2.

hmmm. how should i go about doing it.
a few options are avaliable. there's too much room actually.
might end up a big mess. must slowly think of a way to arrange everything.
weird that they would design it such that pouch thing is at the base.
it would just get squashed by everything. pretty tired now, cant think much.
hmmm. sometimes i wonder, if i were to think lesser.
maybe i would be less blur hahah. you know, day dream at times.
yeah, just thinking, day dreaming about things.
what i wanna do later or how should i go about doing this,
you know thoughts like that, yup. take up brain juice.
sucks the brain power away from doing other stuff.
than the person starts to stone, that blurry face.
yup, so i sort of must like, divert away from that stoning mode.
quite silly actually. ok, this paragraph is just bull shit. most of it.

monday, spend some time running about, rectify some problems.
tuesday, hopefully that problem is gone. than i would have free time for ourselves.
one person's problem rubs onto another and it just keeps going on.
think i shall never lend anyone money already.
besides those that are close enough. and i shall put a cap to the amount.

ah, her chocolate cake is gone. finished. no more. bu jian le.
in the stomach. out as poo. what else?
salad tomorrow hahaha, or noodles, or what, i dunno.
see what she whips up. her sister and future bro in law is back.
which means we may meet tomorrow or on tuesday.
well, when i am back from aussie, the sis is a sure thing.
never encountered an elder sister before. think its gonna be a challenge.
and a FBIL haha. double the challenge. parents are pretty easy.
enough practice in that area. older siblings.
i am a newbie at this one. hmmm. shall do some research work.
find out more about them hahaha. that would make tackling the problem easier.
she wanna watch this musical, king leer or something like that.
the one at the esplanade from the 19th to the 21st.
i was like huh, sounds boring hahaha. i am not into musicals at all.
dunch know how to appreciate them. not all of them.
so yeah, she's gonna get her sister, even if she has to pay her sister's share haha.
hmm, i haven't decided what i should get for her yet.
shall give that some thought before going to bed.
its 19:53 and i am like sleepy already. think i shall pack up a bit here and there.
oil my mistress tomorrow morning. head to the governess house after that.
and lunch hahahaha.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 19:13

Saturday, June 16, 2007

changed the background music. gonna be around for a few days.
its gonna get loud so yeah, you guys might wanna turn the volume down.
its the one where davy jones plays his organ. sorry pipe organ.
sounds wrong, davy jones playing his organ.
kk, anyway ya, its gonna be around for a few days.
dun worry, it isn't on a loop command like the previous one.

bought the memory card today, 1GB, 358 pictures.
think thats like only 300 pictures if it's on the IXUS 75.
great, finally got the moisturiser from mum. like after a week of asking.
shall start packing the rest of the stuff. in case i use them haha.
then i'll have to like use 2 jeans for the entire time i am in australia.
dont wanna encounter that kinda situation hahaha.

dad's flying off on wednesday too. think he's on a morning or afternoon flight.
so yeah, brother's dropping me off at the air port i guess.
better not forget anything ahaha. if dad's doing the running,
it would still be possible to get my stuff from home.
brother doing the running? no chance in hell haha.
he drives a tortoise hahaha. ok la. slightly faster than one hahah.
hmmm, think i'll make my way there on my own though.
meet up with guys, have lunch at the airport.
she might wanna come too, get together. then i'll be off after that.
and ya, they would be off too. oh well.

oh its gonna rain. thunder and lightning going on and on.
sounds like the song haha. but that was thunder and lighting, not lightning.
had my hair cut today. did some trimming here and there.
just wanted to keep it short. when its just like hanging down on it own,
it reminds me of when i was in sec one or primary school.
the lady shaved off the two patches of hair near my brows though.
one on each side. looks different without it. not used to it hahah.
my hair is getting straighter and straighter and straighter.
strange, must be all that dying of it. spoils the hair.
makes it dry and stuff like that.
ok, pretty tired already. shall turn in now. buais.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 22:17

there was this really cute bunch of girls at gelare today.
nah, they won't those kinda school girls type. they were the office ladies kind.
guess they are probably in their early 20s ? anyway yeah, really cute.
and one of them was really adorable looking.
had a pretty enough face with big enough eyes.
work today was pretty yucks hahah. had to buy glue for bella.
she wanted to stick some forms together.
dunch know why she couldn't use the stapler. there must be a reason.
anyway, decided to take my time, and the fact that she didn't believe me,
gave me more chances to burn time haha.
so yeah, took like 40 mins to get a lip stick style uhu glue.
took a walk in the park to precious thoughts near the mrt station.
then all the way to marina square Home Fix haha.
bought it, checked out some prices of the memory cards at a nearby cam store.
then msged her, got it, made my way back after that haha.

morning was well. pretty cloudy. it was raining and when it stopped,
i was like, oh finally, the sun should be out. yup i was right.
but like 9 mins later, the clouds came as well. was like oh man, sians.
ok, had lunch, then i was like, why is it so warm ???
took a look outside, oh, the sun is out again, and the sky had cleared.
great, went up for a tan hahaha. so an hour later, spotted a bird shit on the floor.
decided to get myself some water as well.
so yeah, drank water, washed the floor, walked over to where it was and guess what.
i saw steam. yup thats how hot it is.
its actually wood planks suspended above the actual flooring on the roof.
so its pretty hot between the planks and tiles, the heat cant escape.
so when the water goes down, you get steam. afternoon heat.
its pretty painful to walk on the planks without any slippers or something.

i think she's gonna be like, oh my gosh, when she sees me tomorrow haha.
quite a difference from thursday's results hahahah.
interestingly, she said this to me, mitchell i think you should return to your faith.
days before that, a friend told me that, and about 2 weeks before that friend,
addison kept asking me back too.
not to mention, our common friend has been asking her to get me back as well.
shawn and matthew both work at gelare, same outlet as her.
matthew quitted already. so yeah, its down to shawn to get me back haha.
the three of us guys are from the same church.
well its good to have friends like that hahaha.

well well, just took my bath. think i shall turn in soon.
gotta do a little running about tomorrow. needa get some stuff.
my fringe is irritatingly long, feel like trimming it or something.
cut my hair short again, like last time hahah. back to square one.
suddenly i feel like getting my tongue pierced again.
ahh, the devil in me.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:24

Friday, June 15, 2007

okie, i'll go first.

alright, your turn.

caught by surprise hahaha. yeah that blur retarded look of mine.
alright, thats the 3rd pic of the day i think,before we decided to move to the kitchen.
after like a dozen over pictures. figuring out the cam,
experimenting with the different functions and stuff ahaha.
dad's camera by the way, not mine, i borrowed it.
and i could only take a miserable 13 pictures as he had
swapped the 2gb card for a 64mb one, sians. haha.
luckily, her dad left his lappy behind hahah. so yeah, just transferred.

what did we do today. hmmm. shopped at orchard and bugis.
went on a parker hunt. its on a 20% discount now, so we bought one.
quite a nice looking one. fell in love with the fountain tip ones.
but yeah, they are pretty troublesome to maintain,
not to mention, beauty comes with a price. quite classy actually.
and then, we headed to her place. alright, fell in love with her apricot chocolate cake.
mum, sister and martin found it, not bad.
of cause they only knew it was done by her after they had given their comments.
had a chat with her mum, i think like a 30 mins long one haha.
pretty used to chatting with parents already, practice makes perfect.
however, she had to hit on the family topic, like duh.
and that got me sitting straight. i am bad at that topic, real bad.
but yeah, managed to pull it off hahaha. pretty fun day.

that thick skin arse had to like keep messaging her again as usual.
we were just chatting about a friend, and that fellow totally pissed us.
was like, dun wanna chat now, with my bf. and he would reply.
until finally it was, sorry but i really do not feel like chatting with you.
then a sorry reply. really felt like calling the bastard.
fcuk him proper over the phone, couldn't be bothered that it was at mac.
trying to solve our friend's problem and here the bloody idiot is.

alright she has this friend, since pri school but subsequently lost contact.
you know, different JC's and stuff like that.
yeah, so the friend was pretty fat, lost alot of weight in sec school, badminton club.
enter this among the top JC kind, was very pretty, had plenty of friends.
then she became anorexic, took a drastic personality change over time.
so from miss super popular, she had like zero friends in the end.
her wrist is now thinner than the my swatch face diameter.
like 3/4 of it or something. and whats the best part?
she says there's a ghost speaking to her in her head.
like a second voice kinda thing,
but she said that her friend said it was a ghost speaking to her in her head.
sounds schizophrenia hahaha, auditory hallucinations.
or the phantom of the opera?

man, i am pretty tired. shall stop here.
sleep under the sun tomorrow. oh i learnt something from a friend recently.
one can get a tan, without getting sun burns hahaha.
just flip every 20mins, back front back kinda thing.
best time for a tan? 12:00 to 17:00. takes time though haahha.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:10

Thursday, June 14, 2007

this is pretty interesting, never knew such things could happen.
why, haha, i sound down right evil at times. black hearted.
well, who really gives a damn about some things in life anyway.
and why, isn't relationships an interesting thing too.
sometimes i just wonder. what the hell am i doing.
i mean being in a relationship and stuff, just looking back in time.
all those relationships i was in, where the girls were our game.
thats how, love became a game. which was of cause pretty unhealthy.
but of cause, one shouldn't feel for their game.
doesn't make sense to feel for the hunted.

i saw something else today, which started me thinking.
i saw two couples. one during my break time, and one after work.
the girls were crying in both cases. in the first, the guy seemed pretty caring still.
in the second, it was clear the guy couldn't be bothered.
i was like, hmmm, why are they crying? we guys can be such jerks at times right?
i thought that not because i felt sorry for the girl.
the situation was more of an amusement to me, sparked my interest.
then i thought to myself, hmmm, i used to be that guy.
would there be a chance that i might be that guy again?
the answer, yes there is a very very high chance.
chances of it happening? quite low though. the beast has been chained.

so i was just thinking as well, is there really such a thing as love?
i am beginning to doubt that love would ever exist any more.
the reason why a mother might save her child from being hit by a car,
isn't based on her love for the child but rather, from motherly instincts.
its an animal thing. i seriously doubt parental love.
dun ask me if i have ever loved a girl then, cause my answer, never.
it was never strong enough for those feelings to be considered love.
i am pretty tired. shall continue if i feel like it.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:29

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

ok, just for the fun of it.
two incidents i encountered cause i was wearing the FCUK tee shirt.
was out with my gf one day, walking at PS, 2nd level.
then this group of younger teens was walking towards us.
looked the JC 1, sec 4 kind. so one of the girl was looking at us,
then as the group was about to pass us, the girl took a glance again.
after passing us, like 3 or 4 meters behind us, the girl went, pretty loudly,
OH MY GOD DID YOU SEE HIS SHIRT ?!?!?!
thats why i thought she was a JC 1.

the second incident was at the CC, the office front desk.
so there were i think 3 kids, really young, maybe pri 1 plus minus a year or two.
so two boys one girl. so they were playing around the chair.
i looked at one of the boys, and he looked at me,
then he pointed to my shirt while he turn to the girl and said,
oh hor, he shirt scold FUCK.

ok, the cable car service martin and my parents were in when they in hong kong?
came out on the news today that one of the cabins decided to
detach itself from the cable. so it went all the way down to the mountain side i guess.
unfortunately, no one was inside. would have been quite a wonderful sight.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 20:21

some pictures from hongkong hahah.
stormy horizon.

sotongs, blur sotongs.

check out all this sea food to be hahaha.

hahaha where's the eyes ?!?!?!

thats why i hate cable car rides.

got so bored i did this hahaha.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:25

Monday, June 11, 2007

ok made some changes to the blog.
this is the Davy Jones' music box.
the music that plays whenever he thinks of his love. that heart shape thing.
plus the hearts raining down. decided to add it to just that column.
wouldn't be nice to have those things coming down while you are reading.
so yeah, enjoy haha, hope it doesn't take too long to load on your coms.
my friend's com actually hung when she tried to enter my blog last time.
so yeah, enjoy.

this is the one i have got my eyes on haha, 35 bucks, ouch.
now the question. is it really worth it? 35 bucks for a pen.
when you can get one like 50 cents to a dollar ? those red leaf kind.
well, those work as well as this hahaha.
still thinking hahaha.

well, i got the camera part settled.
was asking dad to ask uncle sam the price of the canon ixus 950 si.
he was on the line with him, and uncle sam owns this camera stores.
so yeah, can get discounts and stuff hehe.
its 540 before GST, with a 2GB card come along, arghhh, freaking expensive.
so anyway i asked dad to ask him, than dad got the price from him,
and was like, why you want to buy this camera?
i give you my one la, take the ixus 65 from the box.
that humidity machine, we refer to it as the box haha.
so yeah, camera is settled, for now. don't wanna rely on them for such small things.
one day i'll have enough to get what i want, and i'll get it.

hmmm, if you were asked to accompany your gf on a shopping trip with her mum,
then meet her dad after their shopping spree for dinner,
what would you say? hahahah, will be like errrrr, right?
imagine tagging behind the two ladies, entering the ladies department,
hanging around them while they check out the lingerie, if they do.
the only few things the guy would be able to help with?
if he has credit, he could pay for everything. thats one.
number 2, he could help carry all the stuff if he can manage.
and thirdly, just give favorable opinions, positive ones.

ok, bought 2 shirts from Esprit today. everyone was home and slacking.
and we hadn't eaten, that was around 13:30.
so i was like, what the hell hahah, i ate last night's dinner as lunch at 13:00.
yeah some where around there, slightly before 1.
so yeah, i was like what the hell, everyone's slacking,
except my mum shooting and shooting the maid.
seriously, if a mounted machine gun could fire as fast and as long as her,
it would be deemed the ultimate.
the barrel would just melt way before her tongue ties entangles itself.
shall get back to that later.
yeah so, i said, hey dad i need to get 2 more shirts for the trip
cause its like i got no shirts in my cupboard.
everytime i go out, i am like rotating around 3 or 4 shirts only.
than i went on to say, if go to australia, cant wear the fcuk shirt,
seems very vulgar and offensive, not very nice la,
got exchange with some other bands. need to dress more, decently.
***hahaha lame excuse***
then he went on, HAHAHAHA they use the word fuck more than you can imagine.
okok, where to?
i went like, oh, Esprit, i know what i want already, the 20 dollars shirt.
hehe great singapore sale.
so off the whole family went in bro's car. except sister, she was with a cousin i think.
yeah, bought my shirt, they went to some harvey norman store.
dad was like, i wanna go look for my Canon in D.
met up again at Espirt's casher hahaha, dad paid.
headed to Fish & Co for lunch, whole time we were at The Center Point.
their fish & co outlet there really sucks, the one at suntec is better.
went over to Uncle Russel's shop, collected dad's car, and zooom, home.

ok, i am gonna get the cork board soon.
hang it on my cupboard door or on the wall above my bed.
than i am gonna pin all the brand labels i collected, on it haha.
just something for the fun of it. some are really neat.
like the one's from Fox Fashion, come nicely packed in small ziplock bags.
i threw away the shirt tags for my fcuk. really, fcuk it.
now i am left with the one from the bag, but i guess that's fine.
next tag? Levis or GUESS. spotted a really nice shirt from both brands.

alright, we are gonna bake cookies on thursday after our pen hunt haha.
gonna go pen hunting in the morning, than head to her kitchen.
and we are gonna bake cookies hahah. she loves doing such stuff.
kuay lapis, pasta, salads, cookies, blah blah blah.
she loves cooking in general hahaha, and i love eating hahaha.
she made a chocolate cake !! but it was at her gram's place, on sunday.
so means i cant have any of it. ah, sad sad.
oh gosh, that ten percent is taking over.

haven't drank in a long time.
think i shall have a glass or two with grandma when i visit them.
not so much of because i wanna drink.
but rather, i never sat down with her for a drink before.
she's old, dunch wanna miss out on such stuff. she likes drinking.
she likes me and shawn, her two favourite grandsons,
we practically grew up with her around us, taking care of us, so yeah.
can you imagine, she doesn't drink plain water.
she either drinks soft drinks, isotonic drinks, or yeah, hard liquer / brandy.
she has a glass or two every other night.
Martell VSOP, Cordon Bleu, Martell XO, some times beer.
you name it she has had it hahaha. and mind you she's 75 and kicking.
you would never think her 75, maybe 65?
she's a smoker too hahah, she's like damn active. alive and kicking haha.
maybe ask her if she wanna join me and my gram for a drink or two haha.
she wouldn't mind haha, more the merrier.
then again, its between me and my grandma.
the only one that ever showed me care and concern, the only grandma i really knew.

can anyone explain why have i fallen for this girl?
not that she's bad or anything,
i just dunch know what would cause me to fall for a girl. its interesting.
emotions at play/work, what ever you wanna call it hahah.
how come i would fall for her? or any of the other girls? amusing.
wonder what cause the sparks. glad that she came anyway.
a good girl. not one that i do not deserve, yet not one that i would deserve too.
a good girl. strange she has fallen for me.
if only i can read whats going on in her brains, not her mind.
than maybe that would answer my question,
as to how come i have fallen for her, and the other girls. interesting.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 22:49

now here are the options, a crumpler bag, a pen ( most likely parker ), or a camera.
i just asked dad, in your opinion, which is more useful? a pen or a bag?
and a hell lot of questions came back at me,
why do you need a pen for? or a bag for? i thought you already have a bag?
which do you use more often? blah blah blah blah hahahhahaha.
i have 3 bags, 2 sling bags, 1 back pack. back pack is my music bag.
fcuk sling bag for normal going out activities.
the other sling bag, the tube like nike one, is for more rugged activities.
say i am going cycling with friends or anything sports or dirty.
actually it covered everything, like my one and only bag,
till the fcuk came in and it's usefulness sort of like, narrowed down quite a lot.
so yeah those are the 3 options.
man shopping's so difficult. hahahah not actually.
i can get all 3 actually. but i only wanna get two items.
maybe dad can get the camera for me, and we can get the 2nd item.
the second item would be alot cheaper of cause.
like a parker and a crumpler against a camera.
ok don't talk about those super ex parker of cause.
a better idea just came to me, get the cash instead of the items hahahahah.
i can do alot more with the cash.
watch a movie, pay for lotsa meals, top up my ez-link blah blah.
yeah maybe thats the better idea hahaha. or i could use the money.
get heike and aunty to do some grocery shopping together.
and they could whip up a birthday meal for me at aunt's place.
than we could sit down together for a good dinner hahah.
can just imagine, chilli crab, steam promfet, i love those two.
and heike's pasta !! its so good, better than gelare's,
that joan actually said it could be suntec gelare's promotional item hahaha.
yeah she cooks pretty well.
ahh, food food food. diversed too much from the main topic.
so yeah the three options.
oh gosh, i really don't know what to get hahha best is to get none.

oh great haha, dad just passed me a pen hahahha.
he got it for free. some pen with the word chabot on it.
shall go google it hahahah. that might eliminate the parker ahahha.
alright anyway their trip from hong kong yeah, they brought back some stuff.
let me see what dad got. about 7 or 8 packets of cigarettes.
2 bottles of ice wine, 2 bottles of dunch know what wine,
and 2 bottles of martell XO hahaha. the one grandma used to drink hahaha.
she always had one bottle on the dinning table.
every other night she would have a glass or two from it haha.
now its cordon bleu hahha, she gets 2 or 4 bottles every year hahaha.
tried the martell XO before, when i was a kid.
i used to go up to my grandma and like, let me try let me try.
primary school, everything also wanna try hahaha.
and she would just let me take a sip or two if none of the others were around hahah.
but once in a blue moon of cause. she didn't allow me to take too much.
i never could survive the beer though, no matter how much i wanted to try it.
the moment my lips reaches the glass, i would be like yeeew it stinks.
ok, shall search out the cams online first.
do some research hahaha.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 12:17

Sunday, June 10, 2007

something weird happened on i think friday night.
yeah. laid on my bed, was trying to sleep. was actually pretty tired physically.
mentally, i was super fresh, thats around 2 am so yeah.
thats when i am mentally super wake.
anyway, was trying to sleep, shut my eyes but i just couldn't sleep.
then i started thinking, how does one sleep?
what must one do to sleep? you know, the steps and stuff.
then i thought, wouldn't it be a torture, horrible, if one has to think of how to sleep,
in order to sleep? super torture right? and i fell asleep.
yeah i have problems getting to sleep.

hmmm, think i shall bring along one long sleeve just in case.
but that's kinda pointless since i'll be bringing a jacket.
shall think about it, think things through first.
still have some time left to decide on what to bring.
the list is out already though. this trip shall be a "wardrobe clean out"
move for me as well hahahahah. oh that reminds me, i needa hang something first.

i miss that scent, that vanilla one she sprays on. just love it soooo much.
its not light yet not heavy, just nice. its a really wonderful scent haha.
some of it got on my jacket. the right shoulder area of my jacket.
so that day she was like, oooo you smell good and i was like,
hahah, its your perfume. yeah, think i shall spray some of it on my jacket.
with her permission of cause, may just two times ?
it reminds me of her hahah. everytime i pick up the scent i would think of her.

this was supposed to be a post free of anything about girls but yeah, broke it.
if its Mitchell, there's bound to be a lady hahaha.
hmmm, what should i get for my birthday? i cant think of anything i want.
i was thinking of a camera, but i am saving for one already.
besides that, there's nothing else i want. i usually only get neccessities.
in sec 2 dad bought me a pen cause i really didn't know what to get that was useful.
she wants to get me something and i am like, no please don't.
maybe you could shop for groceries then cook a birthday meal
and we could have it together hahaha. i don't like those kinda silly stuff.
even the camera as a gift to myself,
i find it a waste of money actually ahhaha, cause its not like i would keep using it.
maybe i should get myself a pen like in sec 2, parker or sheaffer.
cause with a pen, you could write.
and the chances of me using the pen as compared to the cam,
would be like so much more often, almost everyday kinda thing.
yet with a cam, i could capture precious moments.
thats the one one thing that can capture time,
what others cant. pictures. moments frozen in time.
but say if i choose a pen, shall it be parker or sheaffer or mont blanc :X
hahaha, no la, mont blanc's kinda out hahaha.
shall decide, i have about a month more hahaha.

she's on my mind more frequently nowadays.
i seem to be losing control of that take it easy thing.
its like, i have just lost 10% of my control over my feelings.
now i am only 90% capable of taking things easy hahaha. darn.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 22:00

Sunday, June 03, 2007

so weird the feeling. cant shake it off really.
there's a sense of want, of longing for her. yet there's also the laid back feeling.
maybe our decision on how to handle matters before they happen,
actually does affect the way we handle it whether
or not we really apply those decisions.
so yeah, maybe that's why i am so laid back about it yet i am longing for her.
missing her and everything. thats just so me when i am attached.
but its not, so me, to just be relaxed about the whole thing.
usually, inside, i am jumping all over the place. yeah, its better this round.

today's band practice was hmm how do i describe.
ok, its just a kinda, cleared one dept only to earn a few more hahah.
yeah ahah, managed to clear off 2 or 3 pieces,
but we had like 3 or 4 more pieces to replace them, what a bummer.
but nevermind, i don't think it would move much, those 4.
trying to get the aussie pieces settled first. this week i would be pretty free i guess.
gonna chiong again. chionging proves pretty effective.
one person, one room, full concentration, nothing to distract me.
unless of cause she smses me, but even so its not much of a distraction
for me once i sort of like " lock-on ". and there are more sectionals being organised.
what can be better than that, playing together is quite a nice thing.
its pretty irritating sometimes, to be able to play one part now,
and yet a few mins later, you cant play the same part.
thats what they call lack practice i guess. really irritating.
its like the fingers just go retarded or something hahah.
for me, if that happens, i'll just work on a different part,
settle that part, than return to the previous part i was working on.
settle it than confirm both. i find it helps at times.
cause like if i can working on the same thing, my fingers sort of go retarded.

ok, just now was really dumb. fell asleep, woke up, saw her msg and i replied.
the thing is, i was still half in dream land. so i took the corner of my pillow as
a tree branch that acted like a hand for me. so i just msged her back, very briefly,
placed my hp under the "tree branch" and expected it to reply for me.
and i just went back to sleep hahahha. it was only a while later,
which i have no idea how long was the a while, that i realise my folly.
pretty funny, was like sleeping on grass, soft green grass.
with a tree branch for my pillow, haaha, maybe a fallen branch.
but it had green leaves so yeah, puzzling.
oh gosh, finding myself missing her again. sucks to be in love. great to be loved.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 23:02

this one is pretty strange. its like my mirror image.
the way she treats me, totally like the way i treat my last one.
which was the only one i was serious with, not to mention, falling head over heels for.
its like, i am finding myself chatting with she who is like me.
which is kinda nice actually, cause i seriously am pretty sweet with my gf,
so yeah, she's pretty sweet with me.
not all the time of cause, we use it just right.
and now that i am taking a relationship easy, i find the opposite going mad.
which was the opposite case last time, rarely was it the other way round last time.
like only once or twice but it kept shifting back. yeah.
so now i am like, okay haaha, but its a wonderful feeling.
my last one told me something her friend told her.
in a relationship, there is no equal love between the two,
one will always love the other more. i think its pretty true.
yeah, anyway, this is one pretty interesting relationship.
if, by my standards, the relationship continues like this,
its gonna last quite a while. but i am taking things easy, so a step at a time.

what does it mean, when one dreams of another that they like.
is it an indication of how much that person means to them ?
therefore the dream of them maybe because they miss the person ?
what is trust ? it seems to me that it works like faith.
yet what exactly is it ? how does it really work ?
how can we build trust ?

ok, yesterday was pretty funny. ah wang saw me and her together.
so she was like smiling all the way hahah. she initially thought i came for joey.
so she was like, waiting for joey ah ? haha.
then joey started signaling, nono and pointed at her haha.
ah wang was like really !!?!? lol hahah.
and today, Joan already knew about it haha, spreads pretty fast eh.
so joan was like teasing her about it today.
received the sms after band practice today, it was really really funny.
and she's the 2nd one that has said that. pretty amazing.
actually the 3rd. all things happen in threes. interesting.

caught pirates today, didn't stay till after the credits though.
anyway i was told that at the end,
they showed that the boy who was hung at the start.
was actually William Turner's son 10 years later.
was wondering then, about the lord becker, how come he was still alive.
well, shall find out from friends hhahaha.
its a pretty long, not that good show ahhaha.

hmmm, should i get rid of those stuff ? shelf them some where.
actually, i have the intention of shelving the watch as well.
use my spare watch for the time being. till i am out of army.
get a new one after that and use the new one. thinking of shelving everything related.
should i or should i not.
i think, hmmm, i think, i think i shall fill my tummy before i decide.
yup thats right, shall grab something first, give myself time to decide.
need financial backing. oh a GUESS watch costs 350.
can you believe it ? is that cheap for that brand ? no idea .
was thinking it would cause like 1000 plus .
was like ooo when i saw 3 digits on the price tag hahahah.
ok, slack.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:31

Saturday, June 02, 2007

oh gosh, i never found myself in a more complicated situation before.
this is the first time such a thing has happened to me.

A and B are together. C is a common friend of A and B.
D is the best friend of B. C seems to like A and D seems to like B.
now, its only because of whats going on,
that i we say C seems to like A, and D seems to like B.

C is being a bitch to B, treating B very coldly now and then.
C still chats with A but gets treats A quite coldly whenever
she realises that A is smsing B. A doesn't like C at all.

now D seems to like B like since dunno how long ago, but has denied it.
D doesn't like A neither does D like A. but D mentioned that D won't like A.
D ever caused a rift between B and one of B's other partner.
D is pretty possessive of B and A feels uncomfortable about D.
B treats D as a younger sibling and a best friend thats all.

now i do not know how much messier things can get.
and i really hope things do not get any messier, its bugging me alot.
its a waste to lose someone just because of another person.
hmmm, how can friendship still be maintained yet lines defined.
if that fails, i guess the next option would be some what like, elimination.
its actually the first option on my list.
not literally kill the person but rather, bump the person out of the picture.
hmmm, but a best friend, its not gonna be nice and its gonna be tough.
yet to protect some things, certain measures have to be taken.
desperate times call for desperate measures.
and i am desperate to keep this one thing moving,
therefore, i would most likely not tolerate anything that gets in my path.

was on my way back in the cab yesterday when i realised something.
most likely thats the reason why.
why are the street lamps that are used to light up the roads, yellow?
well, may be its because its gentler on the eyes as compared to white light.
and the other reason would be,
yellow light cuts through fog further than white light does.
so yeah, if it gets misty, at least the drivers can still see the road.

hmm, i have re-developed a hunger for it.
its very very addictive. managed to suppressed it and now its back.
its insatiable, it never stops feeding, there's never enough.
it controls and its pretty hard to be controlled.
think the alien parasite that got onto spider in the 3rd movie.
its something like that. its like a parasite.
gotta try and make it sleep again.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 01:15

Friday, June 01, 2007

fine, since you don't wanna follow the rules of the game, its fine with me.
we shall see. i won't lose what's mine to another.
especially one so undeserving of such a gem.
it would be pretty interesting to hear of an NS man hitting a civilian haha.
i would love to be in the role of the civilian.
i shall gloat at your down fall if such is to be the case.
hahah, how many years of education you have had,
however prestigious those schools are hahah,
it will end up in smoke once you get the mark of the chalet.
oh yes, i would love to hear of it.
wounds heal, even if they leave a scar, they heal.
i wonder what would erase a black record haha, hacker ? hahah
fucking bastard.

work today was, bad. stoning like 99% of the time.
thoughts running through my head all the time.
thoughts like worries, schemes, ideas, people, her.
so many many things. as if that wasn't bad enough.
the entire crew was stoning with me hahaha. kat, lini and grace.
all 4 of us were super tired and there was the IT fair which meant lotsa people.
so all us were like dragging our feet the whole day.
better still, for both of my breaks, i made runs to suntec city.
met up with her, discussed some plans to meet.
rushed back, stoned, served customers while stoning.
2nd break time came, rushed to suntec, had dinner with her, free hahah.
3rd level gelare has no camera hahah. then rushed back.
again, stoned, lesser customers. i am getting better with my drinks.
anyway, whole day stoning. either day dreaming,
if not i would be thinking of some stuff while doing some other stuff.
pretty bad. yeah, horrible. 72 hrs, 7 hrs of sleep, sure blur de.

ok the patch of skin that got in contact with the hot water.
it feels like plastic now, changing color already, slightly brown.
think its gonna leave a tiny patch of super light brown, like a scar.
not that bad, but because my skin is fair, it might stand out.
arghh irritating. if there's a scar, i shall go tanning.
just arrange the chairs in a straight line, wait for noon,
lie on the chairs, on the roof of cause. take a nap or something.
oh yes, set my alarm of cause. don't wanna be like a burned waffle.
the tan would help get rid of pimples as well, i suppose.
dry them up and the skin slowly peels away naturally.
oh that would mean i cant work for quite a while.
imagine a lizard man serving you, or say,
in the kitchen while preparing some pasta,
some flakes of dead skin drops onto the pasta, extra ingredient.
you get more than you pay for ahahah.
would look like super dryed parsley hahaha.

ok, there would be some changes that i would be making.
to this blog i mean, the entries. not gonna blog about what happened and stuff.
just gonna blog down my thoughts and maybe, if any, interesting events of the day.
yup, think its gonna be quite horibble to read.
like a story without a head or a tail. pretty frustrating and boring to read.
k, work starts at 5 tomorrow hahaha, i can finally get a good rest.

darn i miss you,

damn it i miss your kisses too.

and your hugs,

i did give anything for one now.

just wanna cuddle up against you,

hug you to sleep again.

ah, i miss the them,

totally do.

her terrible boy horribly blogged @ 00:32

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